Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 14, 2010 11:58:28 PM)
He shook his head, and then tried to hide his face. He was sinking into a child like response.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 14, 2010 11:59:12 PM)
"Please?

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:00:26 AM)
"Do you /know/ what he is thinking when he is in bed with you?" He was trying to say even in the most intimate of acts, we can be alone... we can have fear - am I pleasing the other person, come on hurry up I ahve to get to work, why won't he/she look at me, and so forth.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:01:48 AM)
"no, I don't. I don't know if he loves me, even, though he says he does. I don't know if he oves me, or if I was the best of a bunch of bad choices."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:03:42 AM)
"we are ultimately alone," he repeated. "You can walk hand in hand with someone..." he looks up at her finally raising his head some to look at her eyes, the first time he held eye cotnact as he spoke to her, "But," he paused on her name like he was afraid to say it, "Terra, we all walk alone even if holding someone's hand."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:04:29 AM)
"Do you feel alone right now?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:05:32 AM)
"between you and the voices in my head.. I feel a bit... crowded." He wondered if she remembered about his mentor/avatar

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:05:45 AM)
((empehsis is on the voices not her))

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:06:35 AM)
"do you want me to let you be?

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:06:54 AM)
He shook his head. "More want the internalized ones to shut up."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:07:43 AM)
"Then I'm going to stay"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:08:27 AM)
He smiled and then tucked his head back against her shoulder. "are you sure he would be okay with that?"

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:09:45 AM)
"Yes, I am sure. I think You need it. I'm not going to have sex with you, because I don't feel that way about you. But I am goni to hold you, becaue I think you need it."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:10:31 AM)
He tensed at the word sex, like it was a bad thing. "I don't think I like sex anyway," he admits. She knew about Kate and what happened there

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:11:26 AM)
*the sound might as well have been a record ripping off the record player." w-w-what???

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:12:39 AM)
"it was always... weird.... She made me do weird things."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:13:23 AM)
"So youve never just...held woman that you cared about, gotten close and let nature take over...?" it's a simple analogy but one that works.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:14:00 AM)
He shook his head "Kate was my first and last... and when I tried to be natural... she would stop me"

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:14:12 AM)
"Then...you're stlll a virgin."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:15:29 AM)
"No...we had... sex... it was just not normal."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:16:11 AM)
"That's my point. You don't know what normal is. You were just doing strange, unnatural things with your body. And I'm going to prove that point now, if you'll allow me."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:16:59 AM)
He raises an eye brow.. Looking at her confused.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:17:21 AM)
*she puts both her arms around him, and just hugs him for a very, very long time.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:17:58 AM)
Like before he did not hug back he just pressed his face against her shoulder.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:19:38 AM)
*she tilts his chin up, making eye contact, her arm still around him*

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:20:23 AM)
He looked at her, still a bit ocnfused

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:20:38 AM)
"Close your eyes."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:22:18 AM)
He bit his lower lip, like he was conflicted. That was a huge step for him a huge trust....He did it though after several long moments of deep reflection his choices.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:22:29 AM)
*she leans in for it slowly, and softly presses their lips together just for a moment. more than that, too long*

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:26:28 AM)
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Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:29:07 AM)
He did not pull back or anything at first. His lips while chapped were flavored heavily by coffee and cigarettes, this sort of ashy smokey flavor. He did not pull away. His breath did not catch nor any of that otehr cliche stuff. Rather he sat there confused, it was something he had no experienced in almost three years. And when he realized what was happening his eyes flew open and in the briefests of moments, that felt like an eterenity for him, his flight or submit mindset came in. He learned to submit to Kate, even if hew as not willing, even if he wanted to fly. It took him a moment but he pulled back, like he was afraid he would get hurt; like she might scream or hit him or demand something from him.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:31:08 AM)
(that was beautiful) She sits, does nothing, her hand still on his shoulder, the other still caressing the back of his neck in an entirely soothing manner. There is no pressure here, just as there never was with Tarra. Entirely too sweet, entirely too giving.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:31:32 AM)
((thank you))

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:35:13 AM)
"That wsn't so bad was it?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:35:34 AM)
Her fingers would feel the rough ridges on the back of his neck, the scars burns, and years of abuse. He stared at her dumbfounded then he lowered his eyes, it was submission. Hadrian, who when he spoke was not submissive, had ben cowed it seemed by this at least that how he thought he should act, It was not like he thought men were submissive to woman orthat he was in to bdsm submissive - no rather, it was like, he was a child to parent, a toy doll to an owner who showed nothing but affection to it. His voice barely audiable, he could feel it cracking not from stress or fear or sorrow, but rather from how soft he was speaking. The words were muddled, his thick accent holding back a clear translation but he began "what about..." and the rest was inaudable.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:37:20 AM)
*she blinks, stands, letting him go. Says two words to him he may have never heard in his life. "I'm sorry."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:42:31 AM)
He watches her stand, almost confused by the action. At first he was expecting her perhaps to get something or to get at a good angle at which to slap him or hell even tell him to dominate her. But those words, he looked at her confused, actually like he had done wrong and hurt her some how. The bewilderment on his face, his mouth slacked opened. Like a train running accross his face, a deep shadow of confusion rushing past. He then lowered his head exposing the back of his neck to her. It was not submission. Rather it was almost like he was defeated emotionally, like he was being drained of something. In his head he wondered if a dark mucky liquid was seeping from his feet into the floorboards back into the earth. But he could not explain it. He felt drained at once but liberated.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:47:07 AM)
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to force you. I know you've had a bad time in the past, and I wasn't going to take it very far. I just wanted to show you that when you care about someone, being affectionate can be *nice*. I was raised Orthodox. I never even held hands with a boy until my second year of college, so I understand how hard it is to have to have that barrier up instead of just trusting yourself."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:47:35 AM)
Her voice is apologetic, desperate. Her body language is as well. Ashamed, but not at the act. At his reaction, and possibly having caused him harm.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:52:41 AM)
He was silent, what raced through his mind was not clear - especially now with his head down. He was not not equipped verbally to resond to such emotional things - at least in relation to himself. This had probably become evident in his behvior, and in how he spoke about other's loves' lives - spoken like an adult - and how when he discussed his own it was with childliek understanding - but he wanted to tell her soemthing; the shadows his face cast on the ground revealed this his mouth opened and shut a few times, but no words. He stopped, took a long deep breath, perhaps he was translating from Russian what he wanted to say... or perhaps he didn't know what to say. When he did at last speak it was almost a non-sequitor, it was one word.. One word with a raised inflection, indicating it was a question, but not just that, it was concern - a pensive, anxious question. "Joshua?"

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 12:57:07 AM)
"I want you to talk to me. This isn't about him. he doesn't need me. he's got a whole room of women at his beckon call all the time. right now, this is about You."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 12:59:40 AM)
Hell, oddly enough that seemed to throw him more for a loop than the kiss. The kiss he understood, he had experienced that. What she said? He looked at her, and the confusion on his face was not a what the fuck sort, of look, but rather like he eitehr took her too literally or he did not even have an understanding of what meant or how that was possible. His eyes fixed on her lips, waiting for her to explain. Though hidden under his confusion, was the slightest of understandings, as his posture became a bit rigid, a bit angered - so perhaps he took her too literally.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:00:15 AM)
She looks defeated and turns away.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:00:19 AM)
"what about Joshua?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:04:08 AM)
almost without missing a bit, he responds. His tone was not soft, or gentle or even concerned. It was almost unabiated anger, almost coming from no where. The amateur psychologists - that is to say anyone with basic empathy - might not know where it came from but could hazard a guess that it some how related to his own experiences of sexuality and his own frustations with not having a normal sex life. "Did he betray you?" Four simple words. Four words, that seemed to carry inthe air with such force that it litterally began to mvoe his hair. The air around him even grew humid.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:04:27 AM)
"No. I just never see him."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:05:58 AM)
His body was tensed up like was when he was touched at first... it was like he was ready to fight to defend himself... to defend her? Was he actually getting protective of Terra? He watched her, his eyes scannign back and forth in fast secades like someone who had just been calmed down after balling their eyes out.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:07:00 AM)
she returns to the sofa, and again, offers her arms to him. "Joshua is a good man. and he loves me, at least I hope he does."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:07:09 AM)
(but he never rps with me so grrr)

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:07:17 AM)
(lol..))

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:08:34 AM)
Like a mother soothing a child, like a child being soothed, Hadrian slips againgst Terra and rests his face atop of her shoulder, instead hiding it. His nose pressed genty to the side of her neck. The second he was settled the humdity in the air vanished and his hair became calm, the breeze about him vanished. He was silent, again.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:09:10 AM)
"It's Ok."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:09:24 AM)
"I'm still going to stay with you tonight."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:09:39 AM)
*she goes back to petting his hair, his neck, being thoroughly affectionate.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:12:06 AM)
He nodded brushing his nose against her neck in the motion. It was as if he was nuzzling but doing so from a distance as only his nose touched her. His shoulders were a bit stiff. He leaned back from her touches after moment to look at her eyes. His deep hazel eyes, despite the years the eyes look like they have, are doe like, large and round, watching her, waiting to see what she will do.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:17:06 AM)
*she turns her eyes to look down at him. her eyes are green, blue-green, the aqua color of the sea. Unusual for anyone, especially of her gene pool. There's something about him, and this time, it's not a reaction, not for him. This is for her. she leans for a second kiss, letting the touch linger*

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:20:52 AM)
He doesn't pull away, he doesn't kiss back though. He just presses a bit against her, as if accepting it as if trying to learn what to do. It was a guard motio, it was cautious like he might get hurt or even hurt her. But he did not back away. It was not affectionate in the normal terms nor was it was unaffectioante inthe same terms. But for Hadrian, it seemed the right thing, it seemed for Hadrian to be an act of affection. His eyes did not close, until after heart beat or two into the kiss. His lips move slightly the ashy flavor follow. His lips purse, almsot like a gold fish - just not that exreme.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:21:57 AM)
*she smiles at his reaction, pulls back a bit and kisses his forehead. Says nothing, just continues to hold him. when you warm ice, you must do it slowly otherwise you will burn a hole, put out the fire rather than simply melting the block.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:26:01 AM)
He leaned in against her kiss to his forehead. His hand finaly moved. As awkwardly (for a normal person) they had been still it felt natural for him, but now one moved. He actually reached for one of her hands, it was very slow, very child like, almost like a guided motion, he went to slip his fingers between hers, andas the blades of the tips of his fingers made contact with hers, his eyes focused on their hands, the same sort of wided eyed look.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:26:56 AM)
*this is a huge step. And she allows it, as always, welcoming his wanting to explore. she even smiles*

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:30:37 AM)
His fingers tigtenas if to give the softest ofsqueezes. Then it happens, his fingers go lax,and like before fear and concern and tension are the overriding force. Perhaps, it was cliche gener roll reversal, but such a concept did not exist to him. To him rather it was something more personal. He trusted her and he realized what that meant. "Why are you doing this?" he whispered, it was as if he was getting ready to put his defenses back up, bolt for the door and never show his face again.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:34:49 AM)
*softly* because I care about you. and because you need this. You need someone who cares about you, that can teach you trust. You've had a hard life. too hard.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:38:34 AM)
((wb)) He looks away from her, actually at the door, like he was still scared. He was working something out the danger was still there."I need this?" the fear in his tone - what about when he was "better" was almot the implication... would she be there..what was this...

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:39:25 AM)
"She watches him, just watching. He needs to vocalize this.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:40:32 AM)
He was silent, waiting for her answer and when none acame his hand retreated a bit from hers. He did eventually speak up, "am I a pet project - to be fixed and set loose?"

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:42:06 AM)
"no."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:42:45 AM)
"No, never. You're a friend. A pet project is someone you don't care about. Someone you do something kind for, because you want the praise and you want the good feeling, for you. A friend, a friend is someone you care for. you want to help them because they Need it."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:46:44 AM)
"A friend is someone you can trust."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:46:49 AM)
"You need someone you can trust."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:47:56 AM)
He looked up at her, his head lowered. "What am I?" he seems confused "friends... don't do this." he nodded to her face, perhaps her lips, then again to her hand.. their hands. He then lowered his head but looked upat her. "I...I" he doesn't knowwhat to say that that isclear.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:51:25 AM)
"hadrian." Her voice is soft. "I care about you. do you need a title?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:53:09 AM)
"A title?" that threw him for a loop.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:53:20 AM)
"What do you want from me?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:54:16 AM)
"I... i don't know. I like being held by you." he looked up ath er fully with large eyes, he was being earnest.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:54:34 AM)
"And I like to hold you. We should get back to that."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:56:48 AM)
"What about Joshua?"

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:56:55 AM)
"What about him?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 1:57:05 AM)
"You kissed me..."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:57:18 AM)
"Twice."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:57:31 AM)
"And I should ask his forgiveness for doing that."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 1:59:04 AM)
"You just...you pulled at my heart. You needed me more than he did.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:07:44 AM)
He nodded but puled his hand from hers and didn't look at her for a moment. He then just curled up against her slightly. Silent. His eyes her neck, like a focal point. "Why did you kiss me that should be reserved for someoe you... you love?"

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:08:55 AM)
"Do you really want me to do that? Are yo uready for that? It woudl be ....

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:09:37 AM)
*she turns to face him now, her eyes on him, her hand on his cheek. There's a smile on her face.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:10:48 AM)
HE looked confused but did not pull away from her. He waited to see what she would do or say he was a bit... over his head as it was.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:11:12 AM)
"Do you want me to kiss you again?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:13:01 AM)
His eyes were guiltly. Who was he guilty for? Wanting a kiss? Hurting Joshua...but there was a nod despite the guitl.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:15:13 AM)
"she caresses his cheek for a moment then despite her misgivings, leans in and kisses him, her mouth partway open, her hand still on his cheek. her touch is soft, her skin is perfume, her hair is dark silk. Everything that a woman should be, in this instance, she is. An answer to all five of the senses and their individual desires. She doesn't stop at just one. She grants his request, kissing him again, and again, the long, deep kisses only paused by short, sweet ones.*

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:22:19 AM)
He was surprised but his motions were a bit rigid with the first kiss. He just melted into her, she was the lead partner in this dance and he followed. When the kisses came back again, it was not confidence enoug h to lead but rather he was able to follow, his lips formed to match hers. His mouth tasted more of smoke than caffiene. He leaned against hers, still, leaning up towards her, like a flower bowing up to the sun.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:26:55 AM)
*she breaks it off slowly, then leans back and another kiss on the forehead* "It's late. You should sleep."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:28:02 AM)
He leans up to the kiss,as if bristling against it. The guilty look is still there in his face. He nods to her comment and in further response he just preses his face against her shoulder.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:28:33 AM)
"You still want me to stay?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:31:06 AM)
He nodded but then whispered "It is what I want.. but it is not right. I...." and in a monet of clarity or perhaps his manifest avatar talking in his head further, or something he says "IT is not good trust... Either Joshua or I will get hurt. I...I cannot ask you to stay... I cannot do that. Because it is wrong. You are engaged to Joshua.I will lose my friend if I ask you to stay. I will lose you, Tarra."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:32:44 AM)
She nods. "I'm glad you see that. there are a lot of kinds of love. There is the kind between a man and a woman, when they mate, and then when they are close, and decide to be friends. To truly have a friend is to love. I hope you will accept that from me."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:39:14 AM)
He eases back from her shoulder. He would not touch her. If he did... if he let himself be near her like that, he tempted his own fate. He did not know how to act on it, but yes, it was natural especially for someone who has not had postive affection in his life to want to act on what he felt. Even if the actions in his head were notthe most pleasent or true to form of what could or might happen. He had no smile on his face, nor a frown. Instead of being cold and distant and with his sheild up, perhaps this was the first time Tarra saw Hadrian emerge. His backstraight his head up, and stoic. He looked to be barey 18 but like he had lived 100 lives. "Tarra," his voice firmer than it had been before, more confident, "I am not sure what it is but I do desire you," yes he meant sexual, and it was -probably- again just the need for affection, not romantic love, but it might have been. "but I will not allow that to cost me a friend," the same protective voice he used when he thought Joshua had betrayed her came bac

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:39:35 AM)
k. He was rather... confident it seemed, rather in control. Likeit was somethinghe kept hidden under the surface. "I am sorry. I should told you how I felt." Then he looked at her eyes, and for all that he just was he was back to being the street rat...the timid boy with the doe eyes... it was like she could make him soft, the most valunerable part of him exposed and it was clear how close it was being destroyed.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:43:16 AM)
"It' Ok. You've done nothing wrong. And..thank you for being honest with me. I care about you. I know that. But I don't want to lose you either."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:45:53 AM)
"You are my friend. You will always be my friend. And no matter what, I will never walk away from you."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:46:55 AM)
He shook his head "You may not have a choice." he nodded to her left hand. It was a mix between the soft side of him and the man he showed himself to be.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:47:35 AM)
She shakes her head."It takes true strength to change. do you have that?"

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:50:45 AM)
He looked at her, and whispered, "what do you mean?"

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:52:00 AM)
"I'll always be your friend. Do you have the strength to be mine?

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 2:58:15 AM)
"You kissed me..." he said a bit firmer, then looekd at her hand. "When you tell him about this," said like she should,apparently Hadrian had a very strong moral compass, "what will happen?" He shakes his head. There was a sad look in his face. He was already bracing for losing her it seemed.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 2:59:58 AM)
"

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:00:12 AM)
"he'll be upset, and I'll explain why, and he'll forgive me.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:00:19 AM)
"At that point, its a test of his love to me."

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 3:05:21 AM)
He didn't respond. The look in his face said... he didn't hold out for that sort of luck. He leans towards her like he was going to hug her, like he was going to say good bye, but then he stands and looks at the hallway.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:06:33 AM)
*she does hug him, and then a peck on the cheek.* "I'll see you again soon.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 3:10:41 AM)
He didn't say anyting and now it was the hadrian that kept her atarms distance. There was no response to the hug or the kiss. He would not let himself be hurt. He would not let himself.. he couldn't survive it. He was on the verge of self -destruction. The last good and pure part of him, the part that Kate did not rip away back in London, had been allowed to see the light of day and had been kicked hard... it was on life support as it was. It was not going to survive and Hadrain knew this. He paused before he began to walk away, and if Terra was looking close enough she could see it in his eyes, that final cracking of his foundation. A gentle breeze would topple him.. make him cry litterally,and strip away the last bits of his innocence and trust. ((sorry I realize this almsot copies our ooc convo))

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:12:00 AM)
((no, it's Ok. I didn't get it before now.))

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 3:12:16 AM)
((really?))

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:12:41 AM)
((really.))

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:12:47 AM)
((she feels like she did what he wanted.))

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:18:24 AM)
"why are you pushing me away?

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 3:20:45 AM)
"because iam not strong enough to lose you." he puases "Better to accept that I am going to lose you then to hold on to hope...and watch something get ripped from my life again."

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:21:09 AM)
*she blinks, now she understands* ohmygodiamsosorry.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:21:17 AM)
*and she moves to hurry out, ashamed.

Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 15, 2010 3:27:33 AM)
He turns to watch her, the hurried speech catching his ears, he looks over at her. Watching her leave like that... it actually hurts. He can't hold it back, it is not like watching her be ripped from him but it feels that way, and that pained look becomes clear on his face as he watches her go to the door, as he watches the ashamed look on his face,which is almost parroted on his face, as he fight like hell to hold back any emotion but fails as the tears becme to roll down his cheek. He didn't ask for her to be there for him, he had pushed away but of all the people in the city who wanted to help... she... had be genuine - a white light - but now in the gray.... He felt cold and like he had hurt her in his protection of himself. He felt ashamed, he felt sorow for his lose... was he crying for his lose? Was he crying for being ashamed for hurting her? Was he crying for selfish reasons or because no his frail emotional center was cracking? Whatever the reason, as he watched her, he cried.

Tarra Shapiro (Sep 15, 2010 3:29:57 AM)
she pauses at the door She'd made a promise. She'd keep it. maybe not in th same way, but she'd keep it. "I toldyo uI'd stay. You take the sofa. I'll be in the bedroom. I keep my promises."

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