Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:26:07 PM)
(This user has entered Counciler) (IP = 74.77.248.111)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:26:27 PM)
(This user has entered Counciler) (IP = 72.226.66.236)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:28:54 PM)
*He walks with a cane, not because his muscles have deteriated that bad....yet, mostly just to aid his balance issues. Hes thin, almost too thin. Two years ago he would have been called athletic, robust even. Today his once tall frame is bony. His eyes are sucken in slightly making him seem tired. He walks into the office, not sure why hes coming.... just another hoop to make others feel better? He certainly can't see why hes here for himself. It's not like they can cure his illness....and whats the point of feeling better about it?*

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:31:55 PM)
*Once he was tanned, now hes pale, too many months spent indoors, hospitals or otherwise. He thinks back to the doctor, all the platitudes about how this bought of chemo might work. Hell, if upchucking works. Or the thinning of his hair*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:32:46 PM)
*When he came into the office off the cancer ward, he could see how the place along the halls where decorated for the holiday season, some of the nurses spoke softly about loved ones and the crazyness of the holiday season. As he made his way into the office it was selma whom had greeted him. She was always so gerous and delicate, even for those whom dealt with such depression and surrounded themselves with death she seemed to always have such hope

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:35:34 PM)
and her hope was absolutely contagious the faith she had in recovery even when dealing with terminaly ill pacients was some what allarming.. When he entered she lightly closed the door behind him. When they had first met she had only been covering for the " Regular" counciler but some of the pacients like Malcom had asked if they could see her again, and even though her time was limited she had made them a priority. Malcom knew more then others how limited her time was. He himself was quite the humanitarian in the days when he was healthy, and she was known as a local hero for her own work in selflessly aiding others. (Fame 1 local hero)*

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:37:49 PM)
*he gives a smile but it's empty, platitudes for a hoard of concerned "friends"...hes already internally distanced himself, his internal isolation probably pretty obvious to Selma, but it's good enough that usually "friends" take it at face value. * Hello.......Where did we leave off? *he interally promises, yes see the concilor a few more times, go through the motions, and then when he disenages from her it'll all look normal, so the hoards of concerned friends leave him in peace again....he sits down prepared to talk about his childhood or whatever....ah gods....why?*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:37:51 PM)
*Dressed in a long white flowing dress with black boots that where high enough to dissapear beneith the fabric of the dress, she wore a rosery on her neck which was made of silver and oqyn stones, and in his prior visits with her he had never seen her without that rosery.. Her hair was pinned up and no longer in dredlocks but beautiful strands of angelic golden hair, the soft lips where pursed into such a genuine smile and he knew that smile was due to his presence as if him showing up brought her such happiness.. *

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:41:06 PM)
*She watched him as she waited for him to relax in the comfortable couch or the chair she had in the room* We where speaking on your theropy, have there been any changes in your condition? Last we spoke the kimo was not working, and that diagnosis had you asking many questions both on a spiritual level and a personal one. I would like to revisit that if we could.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:44:13 PM)
*Guilt again.....how can he stop sessions from someone who actually ...cares? Shes no damn nice...* That......the....doctors say to give it more time. That maybe they can up the level or .....something. But I'm afraid it makes me so sick. As for the other questions.....pretty normal isn't it? I used to never think about myself. But now? Is it selfish to be asking why I get ....cancer like this? Why some....mass murderer on TV lives healthy in death row...while a law abiding hard working ...person......suffers?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:44:25 PM)
Gods now I just sound whiney. *frowns at himself*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:45:44 PM)
(did he sit in the chair or on the couch?)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:46:11 PM)
*couch I guess but he doesn't lie down*

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:49:00 PM)
Perhaps if they can find a bone marrow doner.......but the first graft failed....dunno anymore. It's advancing....and the end stages.....*he sighs* One of the more painful deaths there is. Damnit.....I'm scared.

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:51:09 PM)
*She stood up and moved beside him.. Lightly she placed herself on the couch so she could closen the distance between them.. She spoke with such sympathetic understanding that it was impossidble she did not understand him..* You are not alone in this struggle Malcom, you are such a kind and giving soul.. You must not loose faith in yourself or humaity. Though some times it is hard to keep faith in things such as modern medcine when they can not make good on there attempt to heal you.. Have you thought of alternative medcines or methods?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:53:34 PM)
*he looks away* I tried....some sort of herbal diet. And as for the rest....what I read online sounded like it could do me more harm than good. And the positive thinking.....I was positive damnit, for the first year.....it didn't help.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:55:02 PM)
If things don't change I'm dead in 4 months.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:55:10 PM)
I'm the walking dead.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:56:01 PM)
*despair pure and unfiltered, lets just say your unconcious demon mojo brings it out of Malcolm, hes face palmed*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:58:35 PM)
*The look in her eyes shone and he could see something inside her something so pure so full of life and hope.. She asked* what if some one offered you a cure, a secret cure you could never speak of, what would you do if they could give you back your life, heal you give you more time.. What would you offer them, what would you do with your new life if you had it in the palm of your hands?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:59:05 PM)
Ginko is supposed to help memory and the like.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 8:59:15 PM)
((wrong window))

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 8:59:52 PM)
(lol ok)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:02:49 PM)
Was I doing so terribly with my old life? The worlds fucked up. I....I thought it was a test. God gave us free will right? So if more people could look up from there self absorbed little lives and help others, then mankind could help themselves. But what kind of fucked up "test" is it when people are doing that and .........I don't understand. If I was offered a secret cure? I don't know. There is no.....cure though. So this talk is moot.

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:07:47 PM)
*She looked at him* there is no cure you are aware of.. *When she said this he could hear it in the infliction of her voice, she KNEW there was a CURE!!! And he knew she was not the type of person to offer a false hope, she was wayy to kind way to careing..* As for God giving free will that is a matter of perception, and belif.. My quesiton remains the same, what would you offer some one if they could give you back your health if they had a "secret" cure for the illness in which currently inflicts your body. I do not discount all your good deed's on the contrary, it is due to your faith in humanity and how you always put others before yourself, that I ask you what it is you would do if you where given this second chance?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:09:52 PM)
Go right back to what I was doing....maybe try to make it further reaching. Try to help the war zones more. You know something.....what is it? Some sort of new drug?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:10:11 PM)
If it's a testing thing, I'd agree to be a test subject. I've got nothing to lose anymore.

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:13:15 PM)
*She looked at him.. lightly brushing her hand on his..* Let's talk about what it intails..

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:21:04 PM)
*he nods* Which pharmisuitcal company?

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:21:55 PM)
*She got up and said* here let me lock the door so no one over hears us or comes walking in.. As I said this is very secret and it has to remain as such..

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:24:26 PM)
*he looks confused, shes too honest to be jerking his chain, what is this....military? Government testing?*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:29:16 PM)
*She turned and moved towards him* Once you promise to make this leap Malcolm there is no turning back, you must never tell others of this secret, you have to trust in me.. You must have faith in me.. I can explain this to you but i must be sure you understand this is not some thing that can be placed in the public eye "yet".

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:29:26 PM)
Are you ready?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:31:00 PM)
Alright....I take it that public scrutiny would make my participation in the cure an impossibility? *yes he decides it must be drug testing, perhaps not entirely ethical testing* Will it hurt me or others? *fear suddenly that whatever this is might be bad*

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:32:48 PM)
I mean me....I can't be worse off than I am now but.....I don't want to hurt others.

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:33:02 PM)
It will not hurt you at all Malcolm in fact it has been used before.. *She moved towards him standing infront of him that long flowing white dress her soft delicate hands held at her waist in offering to him. She seemed soo geniunely sincear in her approach and her mannerisums he could tell hurting him was the last thing she would risk*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:33:30 PM)
It would not hurt others either..

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:33:45 PM)
Alright then I'm in.

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:47:44 PM)
*She then looked down at him and it is when she began to change.. he could see her for what she truly was.. The beauty of her was nothing he would have ever imagined. Large beautiful wings slipped from her back and fluttered in all there angelic glory the very air around her seemed to pulse with the purest healing energy he could have possidbly dreamed of in all his years on earth.. her touch was gentle as she guided him to his feet and wrapped her long slendar arms around him like a mother who held a sick child.. *I will help you have the ability to heal others of minor wounds, and perhaps one day be able to heal them as I heal you now. Yiou must know I am here to protect you and have faith in me above all others, trust in me and keep our secrets safe from society of man... They are not ready for such things "Yet" so you must be careful when useing the ability i grant you that you do not do so in a manner that can expose yourself, or me to society of mankind.. (granting Aura of Vitality and taking the other

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:48:07 PM)
(granting Aura of Vitality and taking the other faith for herself as well as healing him of his cancer.. But he can not use aura of vitality in situations that would expose him or her unless it is life threatening he must continue to have faith in her, and be loyal to her and in turn she is going to do her best to keep him protected from harm.)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:51:37 PM)
*his jaw just drops, for several moments hes unable to grasp what hes seeing* .....Your an angel?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:52:33 PM)
*he falls to his kneels, just definately overwhelmed and awed, he listens to what you say and just nods in agreement*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:52:55 PM)
http://www.sinful-illusions.com/wiki/index.php?title=File:SelmaLowTorment.jpg

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:53:19 PM)
(This user has left DigiChat) (IP = 72.226.66.236)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:53:56 PM)
(This user has entered Counciler) (IP = 72.226.66.236)

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:54:49 PM)
(wb)

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 9:57:20 PM)
I once was considered such, a angel that is.. My type of "angel" if you would are know as Scorge we where the angels who where given the task of "breathing" life into all the creatures on the earth, from a single blade of grass to the first mother and father, adam and eve.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 9:57:50 PM)
Once was?

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:07:33 PM)
Yes before the creator tossed us into the abyss for trying to guide and help man kind on a more personal level. He closed the gates of heaven to man kind because they "wanted" us to help them, they once loved us, and us them.. But we where punished by the creator for loving man more then he. When he sent a message to man kind that he would forgive them for there ignorance and they could choose to turn there back on us and follow him they refused his offer... Except for abel he cast us aside and took the creators offer. Eventualy the creator seperated us from mankind, leaving us in a pitfull state of torment in which we could hear the cries of torment and pain from humanity but never be able to reach past our prison walls to help..

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:09:51 PM)
The torment grew in us and some of my kind became obsessed with it, there misguided illusions keep them from seeing the truth of what has transpired and they selflessly blame man kind for there own suffering. *Her hands lightly placed themselves on either side of malcoms head and he could see the hands pulse with what he could only ever describe as a angelic glow.. the warmth slipped from his pale face to the back of his head and down his spine.. he could hear her voice soo sweet soo tender as if it was the only voice in the world..*

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 10:11:53 PM)
*too overwhelmed he relaxes in your embrace, tears streaming down his eyes. When he manages to find his voice again he asks* God caste you out for trying to help us? Why would he do that? Doesn't he want....................maybe that is it. It .....it IS a test.....but still to torture you for helping.....why not just explain whatever plan it ....there is?

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:18:34 PM)
*She slowly pulled her hands away from him and as she did he could see a dark cloud being pulled from his head as if it had resided in him and she was removing it.. As he watched this he could feel it he could litterly FEEL the sickness the illness being removed from him, he was feeling healthy allready, hell he was hungry for a big old cheese burger with all the helpings ohhh and a milk shake a super thick milk shake.. oh my god when was the last time he thought of food with TRUE hunger??!! * Perhaps this is his test, that we could be apart for so long and then we come to this shattered world where man attacks man and the suffering is so great so overwheling that he can watch as we either fall to the very same deprivity unable to aid man kind which we risked it all for, or to rise to the occasion and see mankind needing our guidence more now then ever and doing what we swore we would way back then.. now that we have the opertunity to do so. *And as she finished he could feel she had cleansed him of his illne

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:19:39 PM)
illness completely as if reaching into him with that angelic touch and cleansing his body mind and soul with but the lightest most loving embrace of some one whom truly cared for all he had given to society and all the suffering he endured by a carless god*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:20:56 PM)
11/29/11 03:00:33 Selma Nelson rolls 7 dice vs. diff of 8 to Cleanse low torment specialty emergency care: 7, 8, 6, 5, 1, 6, 2 ,W : 1 successes

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:21:10 PM)
11/29/11 03:01:05 JKRende rolls 1 dice vs. diff of 6 to Witness Selma’s Roll…: 2 : Failed

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:21:21 PM)
(had to have another st witness it there was no demon sts on)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 10:24:22 PM)
I'm.........thank you oh thank you. So.....god tests humans and Angels?

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:31:03 PM)
*She looked at him n lightly touched his cheek*I do not know malcom just as he had abandoned man kind so long ago he had also abandoned us to our prison know one knows what his plans are or if simply he decided to start over some place else. We do not know we can never be sure, just like humans are vast in there belifs in humanity and faith so are many of my kind, and our differences vary greatly. But with the pact we made tonight, the faith you have in me, and the promise to only use your abilitiy i granted you and the knowlege of my kind in secret so that society never finds out is crucial. We all have those we have to answer to, and i am afraid that you exposing any secrets or abilities would be quite catastopious for both yourself and me. Human kind has proven they are not ready to agknowledge us, and only very few chosen like yourself know of our true existence. Some have found out in the recent past and they formed a cult there objective was to attack our innocent thralls such as yourself to draw us out

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:32:15 PM)
knowing we would protect our thralls as the guardian angel in us could do nothing else but reach out to protect them, then they tried to bind our souls into weapons and objects while our thralls bore witness to our destruction before they killed them.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 10:33:03 PM)
Who are your enemies?

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:41:24 PM)
There are many enemies, but human society can be a dangerous enemy for all of my kind so keeping the secrets is essensial. But there are other enemies there are others like me whom work in different cities who try to powerpush there way into this one by harming me or others or even our thralls, there are earth bounds they are very corrupt they are also enemies of our kind, they are very evil creatures and extremly powerful they feed off us like the humans do animals.. They can devour our souls to make themselves stronger and they are cunning always trying to use those we care for most to draw us into traps.. It is ultimately those whom love the deepest that have the most to loose. Some of my kind feel that keeping there distance from others and man kind, and making no true relationships leaves the enemies unable to get leverage on them. But there are others like myself whom have lived eternity alone

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:43:34 PM)
and remember the sadness and torment of hearing those in pain and agony and being helpless to reach out and help them. Those like myself that no matter the enemy we try to protect those we love, we try to guide them to aid others in the ways we aid them so that more and more humanity will grow to inspire each other.. We of cource have the most to loose because we do care, we do love, and it makes us easier targets for those who do not.. But we live such a better life because we have happiness in our lives and we have a future worth fighting for a vision of beauty..

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 10:47:51 PM)
*he gets up shakily trying to comphehend everything*

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 10:48:00 PM)
Whats an Earthbound?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 10:48:25 PM)
And you Angels......fallen Angels....are at odds with one another too?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 10:49:31 PM)
*NOW he sits on the couch* Holy....shit. OK.....*looks at Selma* What......you chose me out of how many cancer patients around here.....why me? And.....how can I help someone...something like you?

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 10:49:50 PM)
I want to help.....

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:54:39 PM)
*Slowly she slipped back down to her human form once more.. Her attension on him as she melded back into the counciler he had come to know in his past visits.. She lightly touched under his chin tipping his head up to look into her eyes and he could see the reflection of the angel looking back at him* Malcolm When you are in trouble you must speak my celestial name and then convey the message right after speaking it.. My celestial name Akeso so you must remember that name.. Remember it and never forget it, for when you need me, you only need to speak it and I will know.. Why did I choose you Malcom? Because even when you where at your worst, when i asked you what you would do with your life if given a second chance. You spoke of how you helped in the past and how you would try to further your goals to be a even bigger help if just given the "chance".. I never dreamed i would be set free from the pitt, I like you had lost hope at one time.. Those i gave up everything for had forgotten me, abandoned me, my crea

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 10:59:43 PM)
tor, and left me in a prison of pain unable to reach out and aid those i loved and cared for.. Forced to feel there pain and hear there cries of agony only matched by my own screams.. Death as you said is terrifying but what of a eternity of pain and torture since the time of adam and eve till only a year ago..I had long since gave up hope for a second chance, much as you sat on this couch and gave up on there being a cure that could save you. But when that chance had come I strived to help to council to guide to heal all those i was unable to before. I like you took my second chance and vowed to do that which had been denied me in my inprisonment.. Giving you the same second chance I had? How could I not see you and know you through these sessions and not see my own trials and tribulations echoing through.. *She watched him..* We are so very much alike..

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 11:05:25 PM)
So you want me to continue what I did before. Raise money, help the foundations get more projects going that help others. And .....if my need is great and my life is threatened....I can to a degree heal others. In return I help you.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 11:06:52 PM)
Is there some way I can tell who is Fallen Angel or who is not? All I see now is....you. Well the human you. *he seems shy and awkward at best...and the tears still stream down his cheeks, hes remained more rational than many....but hes coming to his limit*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:13:44 PM)
*She lightly touched his arm and pulled him into her side* I will introduce you to some.. Yes helping others will always help us all in the long run giving hope when one feels there is no hope at all, can change a life.. Look how it has now changed your own.. *She guided him to sit back on the couch and she would sit with him and lightly hold his hand in her lap..* your faith in me will enable me to continue to help and heal others so that we can together make a true difference. I have other thralls who help as well.. *She smiled* two of which are artist that help at a community center I am on the board of.. I also council people at the community center whom are surviors of crime.. They help by donating a hour or two durring the week and offer free classes so that many of the people can learn to express there emotions through painting and drawing.. It is very good therapy and Amara is going to be taking one of her students as a apprentice in her tattoo parlor which will teach them a trade and aid them finacia

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:15:05 PM)
finacialy getting out of the current situation they are in. Also some of my kind also help in the community center one teaches musical expression giving music classes to some of the people in my group therapy to help them express there feelings in a more positive manner and to inspire the others with there songs to get through the situations they also find themselves in.

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:15:08 PM)
You know

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:15:31 PM)
The community center has a area that you might find donating a hour or two of your free time could help others as well..

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:17:01 PM)
They have a section of the center that focuses on helping people sign up for education, how to fill out resume's for better employment or how to fill out grants so they can get in school. Many people at the center are from low incoming houseing and they can barely figure out how to fill there tax papers out let alone properly put in a resume to get a job better then fast food jockey at mc. donalds

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:17:24 PM)
Perhaps you might want to donate a day durring the week and spend a hour or so helping them with such things.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 11:18:04 PM)
I can do that and more. Perhaps I can help the community center to get more funding.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 11:19:12 PM)
*his color looks better, hes still thin, but now his body will have a chance to return to it's former strength given ample rest, excercise, and food. *

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:19:15 PM)
(i do need to go afk and put some food on the stove you want to wait till im done or pause here and continue again next tome?)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 11:19:27 PM)
((how long will it be?))

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:19:34 PM)
(just making burgers!

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:19:56 PM)
(then I shall return with quickness lol not sure how long burgers will take to cook what 10 or 15 minutes tops?)

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:21:13 PM)
(ok brb)

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:32:47 PM)
(ok there currently cooking lol)

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:38:07 PM)
*She responded to him with that soft spoken voice* you could, but I would really enjoy it if you came down there at least once a week, so you could see how you being hands on with some of the people there, seeing how your help first hand betters there life.

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:38:36 PM)
Just some thing I would love you to experience I think you would benfitt from it..

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 11:40:43 PM)
I'll.......try to make the time. It's a good idea. I used to do ....I used to take sabbaticals. Spend a month here and there in different countries helping with the projects directly. I understand.

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 11:41:07 PM)
How.....if you want to remain hidden....how do I explain my recovery?

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:45:57 PM)
*she smiled* its called going in to remission, if im not mistaken you have another physical coming up only the day after tomarrow.. When they find your cancer has gone into "remission" they will stop the treatments, it does not happen often, but it does happen. Some call it a "miracle" others have said "it is a blessing".. Perhaps it is both, but only you and I know the truth.. *she smiled at him..*

Selma Nelson (Nov 28, 2011 11:46:22 PM)
(i just flipped the burgers)

Malcolm Davis (Nov 28, 2011 11:47:10 PM)
*he nods* Who......you'll have to introduce me to your other...friends.