Jeremy Meers (Sep 27, 2010 11:57:38 PM)
Never around a woman having a baby before? That could be a bit intimidating.. I suppose you have many questions, though I would be the wrong person to ask them to for im not a woman nor have i ever given birth..*grins playfully at her* though i have been looking stuff up so i can be ready for my own child if gaia sees fit to bless us with one

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:03:02 AM)
" aye.. that's part of why i get panicy"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:07:42 AM)
" and there IS no one i can ask"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:10:34 AM)
no one?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:14:10 AM)
*shakes her head*" name me one person who is my friend and female and is a trueborn who's had kids?"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:15:59 AM)
ohh i dont know any female true borns with kids

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:18:22 AM)
why must it be a true born?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:19:15 AM)
" i canna be alone with kin right now"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:20:13 AM)
" unless it's david and wasabe's wife hates me .. and... i don't know about the other female kin... not that it maters becuase of the can't be alone problem"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:26:59 AM)
*she saw the food still on the table and then stated to just finish it off, clearly she felt better after eating all that*

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:29:50 AM)
Well ya can have someone with ya when ya speak to them right? it shouldnt be a huge problem.

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:31:06 AM)
" aye as long as it's a trueborn... but still i dinna have anyone i can ask"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:31:34 AM)
can i ask you a personal question star without you getting upset?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:32:21 AM)
" sure"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:32:33 AM)
why did you cheat on your mate?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:33:29 AM)
*she sighed*" well the wolf was pure cutorstiy.. i'm very curious... always have been and well sex with a WOLF isn't breaking the law"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:33:59 AM)
*He looked at her* its still cheating on your mate, be it a wolf or not..

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:34:11 AM)
" and he was well willing.. nail was he was depressed about krys so i thought to cheer him up.. again he was willing"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:34:42 AM)
And even more bizzar of a fact is wolves mate for life, they only take one mate and that is it they never mate again, so the wolf you had sex with will never take another mate till it dies

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:34:51 AM)
" aye i know... just ask evie how many times she's had to hit mi over the head over the years"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:36:11 AM)
" well he seemed to not mind as he um.. took quite a few of us.."

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:36:41 AM)
" and maybe being a spirit dire wolf and all he wasn't like our wolves"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:38:55 AM)
*Looks at her* you slept with nails to "cheer him up?" you realise that is not what you are supposta do correct? You do not cheat on your mate because someone else is depressed, there is no reason at all to cheat on your mate.. It is dishonorable, I do not know how he could trust you after you have brought such dishonor apon him. It is supposta be a special show of affection between you nad you mate. It is intimate and reveals the passion and dedication and love you share. It is the moment when your flesh mingles together and your hearts tremble to the same primal beat. It is not to be tossed around like a hand shake or hug. Doing that makes such moments cheap, and tells your mate that there is nothing special about the love you have for him, for you would do it to anyone whom was "willing

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:39:44 AM)
*bits her lip*

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:41:27 AM)
*He had spoken in a soft voice filled with concern.* do you understand that? Do you comprehend what I am telling you?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:41:40 AM)
" aye..."

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:42:34 AM)
" it's why i got up set at the wedding.. but ciqala said i had to stay"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:43:02 AM)
Do you not feel that connection when you are with your mate? Or do you feel like that with everyone your with?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:44:52 AM)
" i feel special with himnow"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:45:24 AM)
" before often it was just... lust or so i thought"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:45:31 AM)
ohh?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:47:55 AM)
" david knew when we married i dinna love him like that.. i was clear but he wanted me so i agreed and then when we learned i was trueborn, it was just well he was mi mate... since well there was even more reason to be togeather"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:48:27 AM)
So why marry?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:50:08 AM)
" he loves mi always has and.. you know about evie, i saw mi chance to get away to start and build something of mi own"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:50:43 AM)
“I know about evie? I am afraid I do not know about evie, why not explain it to me so I can better understand.”

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:51:32 AM)
" so you dinna hear..."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:52:22 AM)
I heard you sent a message to her confessing your love but i got no idea what that had to do with you getting married to david at 16 years old

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:52:48 AM)
" i been in lovewith evie since i was 15... she changed before mi so not knowing anything when she stopped talking alot of the time or spending time with mi"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:53:17 AM)
So your a lesbian?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:53:36 AM)
" i wanted to get away.. david has duel citzienship so marring him ment i could come here"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:53:51 AM)
*shakes her head*" i like both"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:55:56 AM)
You wanted to get away from evie?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:56:35 AM)
" aye"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:57:17 AM)
" but i changed a month later...before our plans were finalized then i canna go.."

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:57:27 AM)
" so i stayed

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 12:57:32 AM)
You knew you could never do anything with her yes? Cause your both garou?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 12:57:58 AM)
" aye dinna change how i feel and i love david too.. and we can be togeather"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:03:46 AM)
*He looked at her confused* why did you send that message to her? You know its against the laws, so why did you feel you would say such a thing knowing you where allready hurting daivd with all your other actions? How do you think it must have felt for him knowing not only where you messing around on him but you were so bold as to send love letters to another garou confessing your love to another. You sday he has always loved you, and untill recently you have not felt the same towards him. But a man so dedicated to saving you and taking you off the streets and loving you so deeply, you did not once think of his feelings or how your actions would affect him emotionaly. What pain you would cause him in your dishonorable actions and unloyal attitude.. You were so willing to help those in the orphanage that you would sell your flesh to perverts, yet this man whom did everything to save you, was not even given the slightest consideration at any point in time durring your marriage. It makes my skin crawl to think

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:04:11 AM)
to think of the pain he has endured and how he must have kept it all bottled up just so he wouldnt loose you completly. It must have been his fear, that you would eventualy be done useing him and just toss him away. Why else would he have put up with your antics all this time?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:07:07 AM)
" frist he told others..."

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:07:23 AM)
" about mi feelings after nail told him...."

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:08:04 AM)
" and till of late i was very good nd it was easyto be good at least till things started getting confusing again.."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:10:43 AM)
He told others about your feelings?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:11:49 AM)
" well it had to be him or nail.. as nail guessed"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:12:37 AM)
n ail guessed what?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:13:36 AM)
" mi feelings and for who.."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:16:13 AM)
you mean evie?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:16:39 AM)
*nods*

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:17:38 AM)
*Then he asked* you told me that jon and mai had asked you to have a threesome

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:17:45 AM)
you said you had said no to them

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:18:57 AM)
" aye i did becuase i dinna want to hurt david any more"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:19:14 AM)
They approached you together, or seperately?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:20:20 AM)
" well john was pushing for it.... but with mai in the rom and then once mai kissed mi.."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:21:34 AM)
So mai had kissed you of her own accord? Did it seem like she didnt want to be doing it? That it was john trying to force her to have the threesome with you?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:22:00 AM)
" she wanted just mi.. without john.."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:22:42 AM)
She wanted you without john involved then?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:22:50 AM)
*nods*

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:23:03 AM)
She told you this?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:23:21 AM)
" john wasn'tthere and well she was kissing mi.."

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:23:39 AM)
" she clearly wanted it then.."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:24:27 AM)
*He nodded his head to star* This is most unfortunate did john find out about it and then ask for the threesome or had he asked before she started kissing on you?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:27:57 AM)
" before the kissing... but i've kept my promise to david... and i'm tring to make things better between us.."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:29:41 AM)
*He nodded his head* no kissing or gropeing or any thing like that with anyone besides david show him some of the dedication and loyatly he has shown you all these years. Let him know that his faith in your love was not unwarranted and that you are capable of being a honorable loyal mate.

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:30:42 AM)
So he brought up the threesome then she started kissing you when he wasnt around trying to get you to have sex with just her without john around?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:32:00 AM)
" um yes no?"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:32:53 AM)
" any yes i know i've been working on that... i even desided if he wanted he could leave and take our child with him.. "

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:41:53 AM)
Why would he want to leave.

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:43:22 AM)
" he was talking divorce before he calmed down a bit... he's still not sure... about us.."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:44:47 AM)
*nods his head* you will have to prove yourself through your actions.

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:46:59 AM)
" aye but i figure as much i need him right now... he should be allowed to leave mi if that is his wish..."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:50:57 AM)
“you should try and show your dedication to him reguardless. You love him yes?”

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:51:44 AM)
*nods*" i do... i've been trying when i dinna be flipping out"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 1:54:17 AM)
“why have you been flipping out?”

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 1:59:42 AM)
" seems i just make people upset of late"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 2:01:37 AM)
You have no idea why?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 2:02:40 AM)
" differnt things , like mi trying to help mai... or huging nail.."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 2:03:19 AM)
Hugging nail??

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 2:05:34 AM)
" aye i hugged him.. he's mi friend"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 2:07:37 AM)
yeah but you had sex with him, that means you cheated on him with your husband, that means he has no respect for your husband and there for dishonored him because he should have known better as well as you. So you should be thinking about what he did and what you did and feel such guilt and sickness over it that merely looking at him should cause you the pain you cuased your mate.

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 2:09:06 AM)
*sighes*

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 2:13:59 AM)
..

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 2:15:41 AM)
" but he's mi friend still"

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 2:22:27 AM)
How could you be friends with someone that would hurt your husband that way? That would shit on your trust? And you said you slept with him because he was depressed and you wanted to make him happy? yet your actions did nothing but dishonor your mate and yourself. You can honestly look at him and not feel the guilt in your stomache? feel the discust at your own actions? The disbelif you would have such little respect for your own mate and your vows? That is not a friend you need in your life, he should feel as ashamed as you do if not more. Man “tried” slept with my woman he would have his head split open like a watermelon on the end of my axe. Though my mate would never dishonor me in such a fashion she loves me truly and utterly, as I do her.

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 2:25:07 AM)
" aye it's clear ye two are happy togeather... and dinna blame nail... it's not his fault.. it be mi own."

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 2:34:11 AM)
No it is both of your faults it takes two people to screw, yes? he knew you were mated to john? yet he still screwed you like a two bit whore? Hmm? That is what you think friends do to one another? how they treat each other? Seriously Star? You feel none of that is his fault?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 2:35:30 AM)
" nay i don't.."*it was clear she purely blamed herself*

Jeremy Meers (Sep 28, 2010 2:37:54 AM)
you don’t what?

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 2:42:24 AM)
" blame him"

Star That sings of life (Sep 28, 2010 2:43:08 AM)
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