Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 2:48:40 AM)
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Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 2:58:46 AM)
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Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 2:59:28 AM)
(This user has entered Rois's apartment above bar.) (IP = 24.113.83.246)
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:00:10 AM)
She doesnt bother knocking she makes her way into the bar via the umbra. Stepping out downstairs she climbs each step softly hardly making a sound until she knocks on the upstairs door.
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:01:07 AM)
The door was open, and rois was just sitting on the couch watching tv with red eyes like as if she had been crying most of the evening. " come in. " her voice even sounded as if she had been.
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:01:58 AM)
She had a worried look on her face, "Rois, I came to check on you. I heard about the break up."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:02:32 AM)
She looked over at Krstyal and nods. "Im sure he said it was all my fault eh?"
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:03:37 AM)
"No. He called himself a monster and was drinking himself into a stupor. I cleared his head and he is taking a walk to figure things out. So I thought I'd come check on you."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:04:26 AM)
"Well since he called everything off.. our break up. I left the blanket you gave me on my bed at the pack house. I didnt feel right taking it. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:06:12 AM)
She nods, "I usually dont accept gifts back.Its bad form, but I wont argue the point currently. Are you going to be okay? Do you need anything?"
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:07:43 AM)
"Im doing ok trying to ajust being alone again. I was alone for two years after my first mate died on me, Ducky was my second.. and I truly love him. I dont see how he can't see that? " she started to cry again.
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:08:41 AM)
She looked nervous not reallying having to do the emotional thing she walks over and puts her arm around Rois. "Im sorry hun. Its not always ment to be."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:09:32 AM)
"I guess he never loved me after all just using me for sexual stuff and whatever. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:10:42 AM)
"Rois, we are young, do we truly know what love is? Im sure to some degree he did love you. But not that True Feeling that you get when you meet that one."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:11:50 AM)
'I was sixteen when I met my first mate.. been with him for three years... before he died on me.. I know what love is.. I've felt it.. Im not blind nor stupid.. Yes I maybe the same age as Doug is.. but i've been through alot more.. probably better experieance then he had. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:13:14 AM)
"Not every relationship is meant to work out. Gaia knows I wonder why the hell Nail sticks around. Im about as lovable as a cactus."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:13:43 AM)
"He loves you this i can see. If he hadn't he'd left along time ago. "
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:14:49 AM)
"I love ducky with all my heart and soul. I've told you this many of times. I gave him everything I had. I gave the pack everything I had. I Served without question and continue to do so. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:15:25 AM)
"I like Nail and care about him alot. More so than I have recently but is it love? I dunno." She pauses, "You do so well. Its not amatter of your loyalty. That was never called to question to my knowledge."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:16:37 AM)
"I just dont get it. I feel as if I done something wrong. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:17:22 AM)
"What did he tell you?"
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:18:47 AM)
"Some foolish things like he didnt want attachements when he goes on the trip to arcadia for the fear of the fae taking me or his first born or whatever. If thats the case.. How come I dont see mathew and his wife breaking up? I know she's staying at the house because she dont want to be alone i allowed her too. It just dont make any sense to me at all. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:21:46 AM)
"He told me he felt like a monster. Maybe there is more to it than what it seems. But for now, I dont know what to tell you this is not my realm of expertise. Emotions are not something Im comfortable with."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:22:30 AM)
"He said that too, and I told him repeatedly before that I dont care if he is a monster i still love him. "
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:25:32 AM)
"I hate to say this Krystal right now he's behaving like a child.. He needs to grow up and see what is before him before he looses everything.. You cannot go back and change things once things happen.. Time dont work that way. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:26:34 AM)
"Rois, I grew up in a brutal sept. Then Transfered to one far worse. I have done things that would make you cower in fear of me. We are monsters. But we have to accept that fact to move on. Doug may just see something in himself he cant accept and if he cant take care of himself, he shouldnt be taking care of anyone else. Weakness breeds weakeness. That is why my mentor always said."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:28:32 AM)
"He is not weak, not by a long shot.. He only lost one of his challenges thats it, if this is the case.. he needs to stop it. It will only bring him down and make him weak. He needs to get out of that stage. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:35:16 AM)
She shakes her head, "Its more than that Rois, its not just one challenge, that aside he cannot back out without failing. That would make things worse for him. He has to stand on his own. He has to do this or he is weak. The pack cannot and will not help him until he does so. This is part of being Fostern. Telling the elders you are no longer a child and that you have what it takes do whatever is necessary. For whatever reason. I dont know if it is the challenge, or something else. For all I know Stag could have visited him again. But whatever it was He decided he is not right for you and that the relationship you had was not working. Reguardless of how you feel and how painful that is, it takes two to make a relationship work. Now, The sooner you come to terms with it the better it will be for the both of you. I cant have him distracted when we leave. He has to be focused or he will get himself if not the rest of us killed." She seemed very sincere even though her words were a bit harder thant hey could hav
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:38:41 AM)
"Funny how you should say those words to me.. you're not even sure about nails and yet he loves you and hasn't left you no matter what.. I apologies for saying this but you just told me what Doug was probably feeling because you feel the same way about Nail. " Sighed some.
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:40:05 AM)
"no..what I was saying is regardless of reasoning. He has made his choice. Nail and I are a different mess. I like him and I am dating him to see where it goes."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:42:24 AM)
"So this tells me ducky dont like me or love me and he drops me like flies on shit. Im totally confused over this really I am. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:45:39 AM)
"You are not listening. Maybe your grief is clouding your ears. I know he cares to some degree. But even though he cares he feels its not working. You can love someone, love them alot and not be with them because its not meant to be. Trust me. I have seen it and I have felt it myself. You need to find your own feet and move on. That is what I am saying"
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:47:06 AM)
"Well its kinda hard to move on, easy enough for you to say it.. I guess all the times he said he loved me he didnt... "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:48:39 AM)
"Im sure he loved you to some degree. Was it the knock the ball out of the park home run, slide into base and win the game love....I dont know. Only Doug does. Your assuming is only going to make yourself more upset than you need to be and villianizing him wont make what you feel any better."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:50:48 AM)
"I'm not sure how i can forget him Krystal and move on its not that easy.. it took a few years just to get over my first mate. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:53:15 AM)
"I never said forget. I said you need to find your feet and move on. I cant tell you how to do that. For me its easy I was trained to not weep at loss, because it happens. Spirits are more casual about loss than I am. So the only thing I could suggest is Maybe pick up a hobby or make some new friends or whatever it is humans do to distract themselves until the can find a way to cope with whats happening."
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:55:45 AM)
"well I got this place, but meh.. its still a memory of our first meeting.. "
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:56:41 AM)
"Im sorry. I dont know whatelse to tell you. If you do need anything you know how to reach me." (I need to get some sleep, its bedtime)
Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:57:00 AM)
(ok hun i catch you later)
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:57:39 AM)
(night)
Krystal Hamilton (Nov 3, 2010 3:57:45 AM)
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Róis Ó Brógáin (Nov 3, 2010 3:58:27 AM)
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