Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:01:45 AM)
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Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:02:25 AM)
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Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:02:51 AM)
*she would get a text that simply said* are you there?

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:03:53 AM)
*She picked up the cell phone and looked at the text.. Her gaze swept over her shoulder seeing no one around.. her fingers pressed at the number pad and a moment later there was a txt comming back at jude* Yes

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:05:16 AM)
*txt* I do not know what to do, about you. I know I fucked up by pushing you away but I can not not have you in my life. I need guidence

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:06:00 AM)
*txt* where would you like to meet?

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:06:28 AM)
*txt* where ever you feel comfortable.

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:11:38 AM)
*txt* your place if no one is there or gonna be stopping in..

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:12:42 AM)
*txt* I am alone and the only companie I am expecting is you

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:14:30 AM)
*txt*I'm on my way then.. *She got up and grabbed her hoody.. She picked up her keys and tossed them in her pocket.. then she headed out the door as she pulled the hoody on and shoved her cell phone in her hoody pocket.. She looked at the vehicals outside and took shalvas hummer this time*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:14:49 AM)
(want to switch rooms or keep it here?)

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:15:22 AM)
(I do not see a reason to switch room as we are the only ones on and we are still goign to be having the talk)

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:15:32 AM)
(ok)

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:18:28 AM)
*When she was driving there she looked in the mirror and saw her hair in that wild state when you where trying to grow it out from short to long there was that state inbetween where there was nothing you could do with it.. She grumbled in fustration at it and pulled that hood up over her head.. then looked back at the road just in time not to slam into the back of some large garbage truck.,. She sighed and shook her head at her lack of perception but made it to his place all in one piece. After locking up the door to the vehical and setting the alarm.. she moved to the down stairs door and buzzed his buzzer to be let in*

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:21:41 AM)
*she hears the door unlatch so she coudl get inside and after she walked up the steps she was greeted by Jude. he had a soft smile on his lips and was only wearing some sleeping shorts. She would notice all of his easles and canvases were covered and there was no music or anything playing on the tv. The smile on his lips had hessitation and worrie in it but he did a good job of not letting them controle how his face looked*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:26:14 AM)
*She looked up at him from beneith her hoody.. Her own face masked in shadow from it but her voice held emotion, it always did, it was the most captivating vocal sound that it even made normal speech seem musical..* I am so glad you called, I was worrying I would not hear from you again.. *Her voice was genuine and she seemed to mean what she said.. that she was "worried she would not hear from him"* You need guidence, I hope I am up to the task.. *she responded and would enter when he permitted.. Slipping inside to notice all the art work was covered.. She slipped her hands into her pockets.. no music? no t.v.. No art? She let her sneakers which looked like a new pair slip over the floor..*

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:32:45 AM)
*when he herd her says she was happy he called and was worried she could see the reliefe in his eyes and the great restraint. She notced he moved toward her with most likely the intent to hug her but then stoped himself. He noticed what he was about to do and looked down before he spoke in a softer than normal voice* well about the art and stuff I have been kind of shutting all of it out as none of it is turning out good. Every time I hear a song on the radio I think of what your *he pauses a moment before finishing. she herd an s sound thought be for he stoped* voice would sound like singing the words. and whenI sit down to in front of the easals, your the only think my hands want to draw

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:41:22 AM)
*when he seemed as if he was going to hug her she turned to recive it then saw him pull back.. Her eyes shifted then to the canvas when he mentioned being unable to draw anything or listen to any sort of music.. Her hands stuffed into her pockets and her head tilted down a bit as she looked around.. The scent was linguring around her, that soft scent of her vanilla lotion.. She was glad her hoody was up, but seeing him bareing himself so freely in nothing but boxers, made her feel silly to hide benith her own comfort zone.. Slowly she began to push the hood away from her face so he could see the expressions and know she was not hideing them.. Her hair looked a bit wild he could tell it was longer, though still quite short it seemed to be super soft looking and be a bit punkish as it went in every which direction..* Your much better at this sort of thing then I am jude.. I aint good at much good at the whole relationship thing ya know? It's rather confusing, some it makes ya angry, some of it makes ya sad.. It

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:42:30 AM)
is like walking over a floor of egg shells and trying not to crush any under foot.. Suppose its about bearing ones soul so that when the heart is shattered it's undeniably painful..

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 5:48:27 AM)
*as he noticed she was willing to take the hug he was offering her he moved toward her and wraped his arms around her. she might not be good at this and neither is he but he did need the contact and when he huged her it was a little tighter then maybe what she would like, but he coudl not help himself. when she pulled the hood down he looked to her before placing his cheek against hers and then speaking* I am not good at this, I just can not deal with what is inside of me anymore so it is all going to pour out. I know I hurt you and I know I made things difficult for you. I am sorry for all of that I really am. Yes I know we have been over this. but I do not care, I can not live with out you in my life and it has been like a burning knife piercing my hart when I think about never being close to you, or ever being able to hear your voice

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:54:24 AM)
*She hugged him back.. her arms tightly gripping at him.. and she slipped her head against his shoulder.. When he pulled to look at her she did not stop him from touching her cheek.. She listened to his voice, watched the emotion in his eyes.. She spoke yet it was softly and non agressive..* I told you I would be here for you when ever you wanted to talk, when ever you wanted to hang out.. I have been waiting for your call.. I want to be apart of your life. But relationship wise, it just didnt work out in the end.. It's not like I had not tried, even after the first time you told me no.. But after that I sort of ya know it's all confuseing, and like ya said your no good at this and neither am i.. But hey.. perhaps it is due to the fact we are left handed..

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 5:57:10 AM)
(lol yeah cause they are left handed haha)

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 6:00:03 AM)
*he smiles faintly at the left handed comment* I do not think we had a chance with the relationship thing as me freaking out and then you freaking out doe s not cound as an honest try. but you set on where you are and that is fine. i did not want you to come over so I coudl try and win your hard. that is someone elses by now I am sure. I just want some sort of middle ground some sort of you not hating me and me being able to connect with you. I know you did not want the physical. and I can not appologies enough for wanting it so much with you. but to be clear I wanted you su much more because you taped in to who I was when you understood me. You will always be more important to me than just sex

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 6:05:30 AM)
*as he spoke there was a thread of sarrow in his voice and he looked down as he spoke not wanting to look at her face or let her see his*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:08:19 AM)
*She listened to him.. Ohh gaia no!! Her face got a bit sad, and she turned to move towards a window..* bit hot in here.. mind if i open this? *as she was trying to lift it up.. fucking uncontrolable emotions.. damn it was a pain in the ever loving ass and just made her angry that she had no control over them.. She tried to take in a deep breath as she tried to lift up the window not noticing it was locked..* I wanted nothing more then to be yourse forever.. *She pushed at the window..* never wanted children till you opened my eyes to the possidbilies of them, and still would have waited as long as you wanted to have one.. I was living in a dream world, even after you left the first time.. I found myself still clinging to hope that it was more then a physical attraction.. *She grumbled seeing the window wouldnt budge then she noticed it was locked and damned herself as she flicked the lock and pushed it up.* I knew that if I was ever going to have you in my life at all, I had to give up on my delusional think

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:10:27 AM)
thinking.. *finaly with the lock unlocked she pushed the window up and gulped in a deep breath of cool night air..* That is when I tried to go back to the way things where and we had that disagreement in the woods.. i havent heard from you since then.. It was so confusing all of it a regular rocket ride through blissfull heights of euphoria ending in a crash cource for the silver lake..

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 6:16:41 AM)
*he let her go but whe she walked away he took a stepforward and then his knees buckeld some, so it was easier for him to just move and be on his knees. His head is hanging and he is not looking at her. his arms hang loose at his side and it is like when when walked away from him she took something with her. he listened to her as she spoke and his words are much softer when he spoke back* I do not know how to explaine it, You bring up emotions that I do not know how to deal with and when I try i lash out and make things worse. I do not know how to make things better, I do not know how to explaine things. I just know that if you wanted me to I would walk barefoot accrosed egypt and only stops short of the sun itself becuse there is nothing left of me on my journey. I know I fliped out and fucked up but god I do know you will the the one that got away and I will forever regret my actions and inability to deal with emotions.

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:24:53 AM)
*She turned to see him on his knees.. She moved towards him as if he was on fire.. Slipping down on her own knees and slipping closer to him on the softness of her cargo pants.. She slipped her arms around him and held him in a close embrace.. Her hand slipped over his bare back.. she whispered* i would never willingly harm you jude, and i will protect you with my dying breath.. You will always be important in my life and i will always cherish every moment in my heart.. You know this ive told you when ever you need me i will be here as long as i still have breath.. And I still breathe.. *She held him against her the closeness to him was easy to her, it was much like breathing.. The words she spoke where true and could never be questioned.. For she had never refused to see or speak with him.. Even now she knew if nick knew she had jumped to his beckon call he would be furious with her.. but here she was..* your not the only one who has a hard time dealing with emotions.. *she confessed*I think it is a guy thin

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:25:24 AM)
thing, you all get angry it seems to be your first responce to any powerful emotion as if gaia slipped in some unseen rage in ya..

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 6:30:16 AM)
*his arms move to hug her again but it is not nearly as close to the way he did at first. His arms are loose around her and eventually drop down her back. he gently stroked her back before his hands stoped on her hip* I know you will always be there for me and I love you for that. *the words sliped out of his lips probibly before he noticed*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:34:38 AM)
*She hugged him.. when she felt his hands lightly fall to her hips she rested her chin on his shoulder.. her eyes closeing at his words.. she could feel them.. what where all these emotional responces triggered by him or the life altering creature in her stomache that seemed to fuck with ever part of her on a hormonal chemical level she just could not grasp.. *I will always love you jude, you where my first kiss afterall.. *her body seemed to relax.. as she rested there on her knees with him.. *

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 6:40:17 AM)
*he sighs softly* after all this struggle and striff I knew that I wanted to be your last kiss, I wanted to be your everything, I wanted to be your first crush, your first kiss, first lover, your mate. You asked and I refused and now I lost you. I am afraid the love I have for you will fester and turn in to hate as I can not have you.

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:42:38 AM)
*She heard his confession.. And a part of her ached at the thought of him hateing her.. She did not move from his arms but feared any moment he would be pulling away from her.. it was how this always worked it seemed.. But she responded with* i don't give you permission to hate me your not allowed..

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:42:46 AM)
(LOL)

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 6:43:21 AM)
(haha)

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 6:45:02 AM)
*he does not pull away from her it seems liek all the fire is gone, all of the anger has died out and he is now stuck with the real world of him fucking up and loosing her. that means he is just emptie at the moment.* I wish it was that easy, because I would ask you to tell me to not love you, it would be easier.

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:48:39 AM)
*she responded* i would never ask you to not love me.. I couldnt bare it.. I know you think i have this magical switch or what ever you called it.. But you couldnt be more wrong.. I don't have a magical switch, I have a problem with feeling like a burden, I try my hardest to carry my own weight in the war, but i seem even with the best intensions to fuck up and cause those around me to push me away.. I feel like some sort of plague half the time to be honest..

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 6:54:03 AM)
You are not a burden and if you were I would not care, I would carrie you with me till the end of time. *he does not look at her and has his head resting on her shoulder. He is so relaxed and vonerable at the moment and she can tell everything he says is from the hart and he has lost the ability to stop himself from speaking the truth

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 6:56:46 AM)
*she held him tighter when he said that her head on his shoulder.. he could feel a warm wet drop of liquid slide down his shoulder blade and slither down his back.. her hand slipping up to wipe it away.. there was a moment of silence.. a moment in which the gallaird could not form any sort of words what so ever.*

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 7:19:13 AM)
*as she moves her head and her hand she will see that her hoody is soaked with his tears. they fell silently as they talked. He also can not come up with words at the moment.His hands tighten a ltitle on her hip as that is the spot that he is holding of her*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 7:19:14 AM)
..

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 7:45:56 AM)
*she holds him close.. Her fingers slip over his back feeling the wetness of her hoody.. She lifted up.. Removing her hoody and placeing it on the side of the couch.. She pulled him up with her hand.. And brought him towards his bedroom..*Come let's get you in bed..

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 7:52:04 AM)
*he moved with her and his hand is in hers. He sighs deep as he stood and does not look to her as he feels shame and sadness. Also he doe not want her to see him this way, so weak and volnerable*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 8:00:25 AM)
*she got him into the bed.. She kicked off her sneakers and wrapped him up in a sheet. Then she climbed in with him behind his back.. She rubbed at his shoulder and rested her head on his.. Her body pressed against his spine.. She remembered being all alone walking the streets feeling that emptyness in her.. not understanding it, not comprehending it.. And not having anyone to help her with it, till she was fed and nurtured back.. He would need someone to help him, and she would gladly do it.. gave her time to keep her own concerns on the back burner why she focused on helping him.*

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 8:03:22 AM)
*he was like a swaddled baby at the moment he layed int he bed and sighed softly. But when he felt her pressed so close to him and her rubbing his shoulders there was a soft moan to slip his lips. He moves and presses himself closer to her*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 8:05:56 AM)
*She would hold him through the night, rubbing his shoulder and keeping him close to her.. She would stay there and watch over him when he fell asleep.. and most certainly be awake when he woke up, having not left him and just held and watched over him.. kept him close.. The scent of her in his hair on and seemingly all around him..*

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 8:10:03 AM)
*he slept hard and seemed very comforted by her being there the whole night. Throught the night he would roll over and toss some but he kept her close and even kissed her head at some point. he might have been sleeping he might not have been but he seemed like he was*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 8:13:50 AM)
*she held him close.. her hands would lightly graze his cheek when he slept.. she would watch the breath fall from his lips.. the rise and fall of his chest.. Her face would burry itself in his hair from time to time.. gentle touches through out the night..*

Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 8:21:34 AM)
*as he sleeps it seems he is content to have her in the bed with him. now and then she will see a soft smile on his lips*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 8:26:13 AM)
*The soft smiles make her smile in return.. a happy little sigh, thinking she caused him some happyness made her feel really fuckin amazing..*

Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 9:10:37 AM)
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Wendy Dubois (Nov 30, 2010 9:22:40 AM)
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Judah Wilson (Nov 30, 2010 9:22:46 AM)
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