Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:08:53 PM)
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Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:08:55 PM)
"I know...I amnot saying I doubted you. I said...I will wait," he pauses and looks at her, "even if you tell me no...I will wait."
Tarra: "Then you'll let me stay tonight?"
He nodded, "I love you."
Tarra: "And I you."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:09:02 PM)
(ty. )
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:09:31 PM)
He smiled broadly, looking at her face. He seemed happy...it was very childlike still; a broad uninhibated smile.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:09:32 PM)
*she rises at that, rinses out the bowls and stacks them in the dishwasher. A quick scrub of the pot and wordlessly she started down the hall again*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:09:50 PM)
((he didnt eat it remember))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:10:03 PM)
(then she'd have put it back in the fridge)
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:10:43 PM)
He watched her go to the hall, not sure what to do. He had remained sitting on the couch, watching her.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:13:50 PM)
*she goes into the bathroom herself. he hears the water run in the shower, the sound it makes when striking a body rather than the bare tub. the water runs for seven minutes, thirty seconds*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:14:41 PM)
She'd see his boots still stuck in the corner. Hadrian, sometime during that time, curled up into a semi-fetal position on the couch.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:23:32 PM)
*when shes done, she wraps herself in a towel, gathers up the dirty clothes that she can find and tosses them int the washing machine. Apparently his presence there is no longer consequential to her. She just looks at him, says frankly* "Are you coming to bed?"
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:24:35 PM)
((ouch))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:24:49 PM)
((there's psycholgy behind this))
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:24:56 PM)
((read that second to last sentence out of context))
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:25:03 PM)
((jesus... that is harsh..))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:25:15 PM)
(out of context, yes. I'll explain her thoughts in a moment)
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:26:24 PM)
He looks at her... at her in the towel... and looks down blushing. "You... don't want to be dressed?" It was not that he was shying away from her, or offended, rather that he was was surprised.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:31:23 PM)
"What I do or what I say seems to have no bearing on you. You have an idea in your mind of how things are, a shaping of reality that is absolute, and that's just sort of how it is. The more I try to show you that you're human, you deserve the basics of kindness and courtesy, the more you hurt me. I'm tired of being hurt." She goes into the bedroom again.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:35:23 PM)
"wait..." he whispers. Waiting to see if she would stop...
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:35:40 PM)
she stops.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:35:48 PM)
"I was going to put some clothes on."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:41:37 PM)
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Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:47:11 PM)
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Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:47:13 PM)
"I am not trying to hurt you... I am trying to protect myself... Tarra, I do love you... I am in love with you. And that scares me. That makes me weak; I mean gives me a weak point... something someone can strike at... something you can strike at. It is scary to be so exposed... You can crush me. You can destroy me... yo uare so close to it. You can crush me destory me....and I understand that... that yo uare genuine that you care... that you are good.. but when the world slaps you down so much yo ualways expect ot be slapepd down... expect to be hurt... it not you... its the world.. the world is bad not you and I've been slapped so much that I can't... I can't... I do not know how to act like I am not being slapped."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:48:19 PM)
'Hold that thought. I'm not wearing enough for a decent conversation. I have my modesty, and I have my morals." She seems to understand what he's said. the tone of her voice softens, her eyes change. She dissappears into the bedroom.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:49:49 PM)
He curls up and just waits for her to return then.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:50:37 PM)
*she steps out dressed agaiin in her camisole, shorts and from the curve of it, nothing beneath. she has a comb in her hand, and a hand towel. She sits by him and starts to comb out her hair* "It took a lot of couraget to tell me that, didn't it?"
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:52:56 PM)
"No." He says softly. "Even if I still fear that you will be ripped from my life... even if you are the one doing the damage... you are... someone I care about and deserve my honesty." His disagreement about courage... so more like a moral thing, but yes, it did take courage and he didn't want to say that.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:54:17 PM)
she blots most of the water from her hair with the towel, combing it straight with a comb. "I won't be ripped from your life. We're staying here. Even though I have a lot of order business I have to take care of in Boston, and I work a lot with Xander, Josha is here, and so my place is as well. I'm not going anywhere." She sounds almost defefated.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 2:57:57 PM)
HE frowne deeply "You can be ripped out of a a life without being... taken from the city. I... I..." He curls up agianst her side, trying to hide against her and from her. "I don't want you to go... I.... please"
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 2:58:58 PM)
*she kisses his forehead* "I'm going to bed. Are you coming or not?"
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:00:56 PM)
He wrapped his arms around her waist and tucked his face against her stomach. Trying to seem small...He nodded to her.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:02:27 PM)
*she lays back a bit, wanting him to be comfortable, petting his hair and trying to soothe*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:05:49 PM)
He turned to look up at her, laying on his back now. "Tara, I love you." he had said it alot in the last few minutes. Maybe it... he rarely says it otherwise, so maybe it mattered to him to say it alot.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:06:14 PM)
"i know you do. Get up, we're going to go where it's more comfortable to talk and be held."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:07:52 PM)
He was reluctant... maybe he was comfortable or just didn't want to lose the cotnact wit her that he was now experiencing. He pulled away, slowly. Then stood.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:08:29 PM)
"She stands as well, turns out the lights and leads him back towards where the sleeping area is. there's a mattress on the floor. apparently poverty is othing new to tarra."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:09:07 PM)
HE looks at the matress then at her..His hand slips into hers...
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:10:14 PM)
*she nods, then folds back the blankets and lies down, the main light in the room being exchanged for a small one by the bedside*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:12:19 PM)
He looks at at her..laying there..He looks confused and sat at the foot of the matress.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:13:01 PM)
"come lie down."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:15:14 PM)
He looked embarrased "how..." he sighed.. "Kate.. just had me lay next to her..."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:15:40 PM)
"Get comfortable." she motions to her clothes. "I usually sleep in this."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:17:37 PM)
HE looks at her clothes. "I usually slept in all my clothes. I am not sure what ...is right."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:17:48 PM)
"then be comfortable." she opens her arms up.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:19:57 PM)
He looks at her arms and then at her body.."how do .. do I... lie...next to someone and hold them?"
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:21:55 PM)
"You undress to where you are comfortable then you lie down, put your head here..*she taps her shoulder* and your arm here. *she taps her waist. "It's that easy."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:23:17 PM)
He frowned... "I.. What shoudl I remove?"refering to his clothes.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:25:15 PM)
"Whatever you are comfortable with."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:25:27 PM)
"You..don't wear underwear do you?"
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:26:17 PM)
"I...do..." actualy it was one of the few things he changed regurally as they were the easitest thing to wash and dry.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:26:34 PM)
"then strip down to that.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:27:52 PM)
A mix between wanting to make her happy and being like he was with Kate. First came off his shirt. His bac to her. It was a slow
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:27:55 PM)
((more))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:29:21 PM)
*she just waits, letting him take his time
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:29:45 PM)
A mix between wanting to make her happy and being like he was with Kate. First came off his shirt. His back to her. IT was a slow motion. He removed it slowly. His arms tremblng. He was clearly afraid. The shirt was shakly removed and put down on the ground.... His back was not.... good... There was a major burn up his left shoulder ot the back of his neck, and one on the small of his back towards hsi right ass ass cheek. A large scar runs accross his back,crossing his spine. a small round wound about the size of 9mm hole on his right side, between two ribs. and a knife would near his kidney. AS well as a peppering of other scars.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:30:59 PM)
*she doesnt say anything about the scars, ooking at them and then again, just laying there, waiting*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:33:24 PM)
((the pepper include, minor ones...that dot his back,mostly.)) He then raises his hips up.Removing his jeans slowly. He is wearing boxer breifs...and he is clearly aroused..He just looksat her.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:34:45 PM)
"Come lie down."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:35:22 PM)
He lays on his back,whichdoes little to hide himself under his boxerbreifs... he looks over at her.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:36:37 PM)
*in an entirely sweet gesture, she moves his arm a little, rests her head on his chest, curls his arm over her shoulder, and drapes her arm over is chest, so that she's lying in the crook of his arm*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:38:53 PM)
He tensed and then squeezed her shoulder. "Tarra, I want to be yours."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:39:47 PM)
"I know."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:39:53 PM)
"close your eyes and go to sleep."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:41:12 PM)
"Can you...can..."he goes silent for a mometn.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:42:12 PM)
"Can what?"
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:42:40 PM)
"like on the couch."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:42:49 PM)
"I am hugging you."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:43:11 PM)
He shook his head. "The other thing..."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:43:33 PM)
"If you want something, you need to tell me"
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:43:58 PM)
"I...kiss..."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:45:03 PM)
"you should do it if you want that."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:45:53 PM)
" I... want you," despite the colloqualism of the words, he was speaking of something beyond physical contact.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:46:25 PM)
*she plants a soft kiss on his lips* "close your eyes, go to sleep.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:47:20 PM)
He doesn't kiss her back well. It was an unskill motion. He follows her up as she puls away to speak. He goes to kiss again, as she speaks. IT was semi-goldfish like.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:48:34 PM)
*she turns him so that he's facing her. that wouldn't satisfy him, and she knew it. She lleans back behidn her, turns off the light*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:49:16 PM)
He watches her turn the light off.. wondering what she was doing. Simple actions had to have a meaning.. or he was just not use to it.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:49:30 PM)
*she settles back down after that and lies still.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:50:04 PM)
He turns to look down at her. Watching her.. even in the darkness.. Not sure waht to do.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:51:34 PM)
*her eyes close and he feels her brething change.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:51:56 PM)
He sighs.."Tarra?" he whispers...
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:52:07 PM)
*she stirs a little*
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:52:10 PM)
yeah?
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:52:46 PM)
There was silence from him. He was just leaning up, to watch her.. Look down at her..
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:53:37 PM)
*she curls, cuddles in again, and is asleep*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:54:03 PM)
he sighs and he dose not move from the awkward position he is in. He was leaning up, propped up on his elbow to watch her..
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:55:05 PM)
"It's easier if you lie down."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:56:30 PM)
"i..." he frowns deeply not that she can see it. He leans towards her slowly, like is nervous as hell. He gently brushes his lips over her upper lip. It was not a real kiss but it was the most he know how to do.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:57:23 PM)
*she turns her lips a little to return it*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:58:51 PM)
He turns his head slightly, pressing hsi forehead to hers, giving the softest and gentle of pecks onher lips. It was not deeply passioante but his motions and his body language, the aire he gave, was deeply romantic for him... deeply trusting.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 3:59:10 PM)
*she whispers* that's better.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 3:59:59 PM)
He whispers agianst her lips, "I love you." Then he repeatst he same motion as before. it was so soft, so gentle...but it was a confident, like he was confirming what he said before.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 4:01:25 PM)
*she responds this time, her arms creeping up around his neck, returning the kiss with a sweetness, an innocence
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 4:03:36 PM)
He turns brushing his body agianst hers, she could tell that he was very arousd by her.. but then he moved his hips back to hide it. "What now?" he whispered. Said like he had no idea what to do, no constuct of what was acceptableand waht as not.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 4:04:04 PM)
*softly* go to sleep.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 4:04:45 PM)
"I.... I don't feel tired."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 4:05:06 PM)
"If I let you keep kissing me, we'll end up having sex. and then you'll really get hurt."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 4:07:18 PM)
She could probably hear his brow furrrow. Fora moment he presses his forehead against hers. "I...I am... I...am not asking...for that..." he was clearly embarrased by the idea of his desire for her. He closes his eyes for a moment. "I just want to love you like you deserve," his voice a bit more confident than it was before. He was bit annoyed at the name - watson... he hated that name.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 4:08:34 PM)
*in a moment of unforeseen boldness, she lets her hand go to where it a woman never should on a man, unless she means business. Then she pulls back* "You're aroused. If you're not asking for that, then what?"
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 4:11:18 PM)
He lets out two gasps breath, his body jumping towards hers, his penis flicking up towards her hands. He Pressed his forhead hard into Tarra's. It was not a violent action it was... a pleasured/pained response. He did not expect that, it startled him.. it pleased him and that pained him.. it was overwhelming. "to love"
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 4:12:19 PM)
(ause, gotta run)
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 4:12:48 PM)
((see ya))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 16, 2010 4:13:05 PM)
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Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 16, 2010 4:13:12 PM)
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