Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 1:56:45 AM)
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Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 1:57:33 AM)
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Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 1:58:16 AM)
*A midscale, casual restaurant. Peaceful, atmospheric. Colearrived promptly on time*

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 1:59:53 AM)
*she arrived on her bike and pulled up by his car. She gave a wave and took off her helmet* Thank you for meeting me. Rowan and Adrean are at the house talking...after he was a bit thoughtless, in a minor way, but it was enough to make Rowan concerned. I wanted them to talk..without interference.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:00:08 AM)
And I also thought..well, dinner would be good. *she smiled faintly*

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:00:54 AM)
It sounds like they needed it, and yes dinner would be good. *he opened the door for her* How was your day otherwise?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:01:34 AM)
Good, calm. I spent it organizing some books..and then buying more. *she walks in to the restaurant*

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:02:17 AM)
What sort of books?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:05:10 AM)
Some more philosophy books. It was a second hand store so one has notes of another person written into it. It's interseting..its like having a discussion on the philosophy and ideas with another person..as I read it.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:07:13 AM)
That is rather fascinating

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:07:35 AM)
And your day? What did you do?

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:08:33 AM)
I finished a report for work, did some more checking into some investments, tried to track down an address for another kinfolk and cleaned. *As they were seated he perused the menu* The chicken canneoli here is superb.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:08:56 AM)
*She nods a bit* Sounds busy

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:09:10 AM)
It was productive.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:11:02 AM)
Good. *She nods and looks over the menu* and that does look luxuriously delicious

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:12:58 AM)
Most all of the pastas are good. For some reason my mother loved italian. I think it was our neighbors were Italian

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:14:06 AM)
Good neighbors to have. *She nodded in agreement with a chuckle* Italian is one of those types of cuisine if done well...its addictive

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:15:05 AM)
It is simple, hearty and delicious. Not much mroe to ask with food.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:18:16 AM)
Which makes it something where people are tempted to over complicate it. I mean..just reading articles on healthy eating and such..you have to be a nutritionalist just to shop it seems

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:20:09 AM)
People get confused because this world deliberatly muddles it up

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:20:37 AM)
Humanity is good at that. In the normal myopic way it does everything

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:23:59 AM)
Sex, love, marriage, life, food, breathing...Make rules and guidelines for everything..in such a way they can never be changed or reconsidered

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:26:10 AM)
America in general is very backwards

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:26:28 AM)
fear sex, falsify food and idolize violence

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:26:32 AM)
You think its restricted to the US? *she sipped her water*

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:26:59 AM)
No, but US is worse. They have fewer ancestors to remember

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:30:04 AM)
A good point. *She shakes her head* What makes me baffled is just the ...stupid arguments, the stupid bickering over things that are ..minor.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:30:55 AM)
Such as?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:32:53 AM)
*She shrugs* well...I know..our family's view on it, but for just..outside our group..the entire debate over gay/lesbian marriage. It just seems entirely blown out of proportion in terms of being against it. Since when does a choice I make..impact the moral values of another unrelated couple

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:34:49 AM)
Because America was founded on puritan values

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:35:07 AM)
and stuck with them for three hundred years while the rest of the world tried to moveon

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:36:15 AM)
Good point. I do get irritated with the christian argument. And it is Puritan. it's not say..what I would consider when I think of Jesus...as a person. Puritans seemed to find a way to warp everything so there is always one person better, one person lesser...and we stayed there

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:39:05 AM)
Thinking of oneself as pure always means that whoever is not like you in impure

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:40:38 AM)
Hm. *she nods a bit and when they order, she orders the chicken Canneoli and some white wine*

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:43:02 AM)
*he ordered red wine, chicken canneoli and breadsticks for the both* How have you been?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:44:27 AM)
I've been fine. Getting used to living with Rowan. Rowan is easy to get along with though..so its been easier..then it might have been

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:45:37 AM)
Have you thought anymore about a packhouse?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:46:38 AM)
Honestly, with the distractions, not yet. *she frowned just a tad* We need to focus and quickly. However, I don't want to put pressure where it is not due. I have no specific quests for power or anything myself, but I want us to have a secure footing here.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:47:33 AM)
*he gave a small nod* It will come in time

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:48:10 AM)
I also know Rowan is trying to balance out her feelings on moving from her family land...and moving locations. Pressing on that would be disrespectful

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:51:58 AM)
She has strong ties with her family. She finds strength from that. Cutting her off could be..well, as she is my sister..cutting myself.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:53:38 AM)
I like Rowan. *She exhales* She's kind. Sweet and sincere. *she smiles faintly* I'm..very lucky I have her as part of my pack I think.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:55:29 AM)
Rowan is very kind. And she should not have to leave her lands. however it would also be helpful to have a place closer to the heart of things

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:55:54 AM)
It would. I personally think it woul be good if we could get the land and just build something small

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 2:56:53 AM)
Whatever you all decide

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:57:21 AM)
We'll work something out.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 2:59:41 AM)
I think we will work out well. Its a process though of learning about one another

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:00:49 AM)
This is..all coming together easier then I thought it would to be honest

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:01:00 AM)
How did you expect it would come?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:01:12 AM)
I...was not hopeful.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:01:22 AM)
Why?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:02:22 AM)
*she shrugs faintly* Well...i came into this with a negative perspective...from the start, so that reinforced my notions of how things would go. I just also expected...strict...tradition bound members of our family...not individuals who well..I could enjoy the company of

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:04:08 AM)
Many are less strict than our own bretheren

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:04:53 AM)
*She nods a bit* I like it here thus far.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:07:48 AM)
*she gave a bit of a smug look while she sipped her wine * I believe my uncle was disappointed to hear that I was doing satisfactory here though.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:09:33 AM)
Why?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:11:00 AM)
I think he expected me to..fall flat and come back asking for help. *She sips her wine and leans back, looking pleased* I don't know why, or ..really care, but perhaps he and my biological father had some sort of issue. Or he's just pissed at my mother and wants me under foot to watch. Either way...he has no reason to call me back realistically without questions from higher ranking family..so I'm comfortable with that

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:12:35 AM)
That seems painfully counterproductive

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:14:56 AM)
Well, even our part of the family is sometimes good at working agains itself

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:15:05 AM)
I suppose

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:17:02 AM)
*she shrugs a bit* In any case...things are progressing.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:18:34 AM)
They do check in on you frequently

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:20:44 AM)
Mm. My mother makes a bi weekly call. My aunt gives a monthly email inquiring. My uncle calls sporadically...seemingly to just " ask how i'm doing and if I need anything.". My question to you..on your reasons for being sent here was actually spurred by his questions on you. He asked me about "relatives" in the area and if I found any of them interseting..and if I was thinking on my future.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:21:03 AM)
I see.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:21:15 AM)
*he sipped his wine at this, quieting*

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:22:52 AM)
*She swallowed a bit* for the record, I told him that I had met you and found you interesting, helpful, and extrodinarily intelligent, and that you were doing well in progressing in the area. Which is A. the truth, and B. insurance in case your side of the family just happens to have a mutual acquaintance. So..if anything, even if they are possibly annoyed at me as a grouping..they should be proud and pleased with you.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:24:56 AM)
My family was quite neutral on the subject, though I believe my uncle is familiar with yours

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:26:11 AM)
*She nods a bit, taking a bit of food and leans back, sipping a bit more wine* Do they want you to marry at some point?

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:27:34 AM)
They are so happy as long as I serve the tribe.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:28:15 AM)
*she nods a bit* do you..want to marry. And I mean..beyond pleasing tribe, helping tribe. Do you want to..marry someone?

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:30:10 AM)
Yes, I would. I would like to stop feeling like everything is an endless slog and have a family to care for and focus upon.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:30:55 AM)
*She nods a bit* Rowan, and I believe Michelle feel the same way.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:32:26 AM)
I hope that I may do good enough work here that the tribe and my family will allow me to move where I can settle and do something for myself.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:32:40 AM)
I'll see that you get that wish Cole.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:34:12 AM)
I appreciate it.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:35:08 AM)
*She nods and finishes off her wine, and looks to debate another glass..and then pushes her glass aside and pulls her water glass closer*...I honestly think perhaps I have too much hate to be a parent. *she said quietly*

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:35:48 AM)
Why do you say that?

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:38:46 AM)
Because...irrationally as it may be..you had it correct...I'm still hurt, and I'm still angry. I'm angry at my mother...my immediate family. I've accepted what I cannot change. I ...work to accept what I am..and what I must be..but that does not mean I forgive the past so easily.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:39:24 AM)
I see.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:40:39 AM)
*She shrugs faintly* A child...should not have to endure a parent with so much spite. Nor shoud a husband have to endure that either. *She swallows her water and takes her last bite of food*

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:42:07 AM)
I hope that one day you find a way to heal.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:42:47 AM)
Perhaps I will. *she shrugs* Or just get over myself. Perhaps I take this too deep and should let go.

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:44:03 AM)
But for now...likely time..for sleep.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:44:15 AM)
I don't think you choose to let go consciously. You just do. And yet, it has been a very long day.

Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:44:20 AM)
(Goodnight! Sleep well!)

Sarah Matthews (Nov 20, 2011 3:44:26 AM)
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Cole Moore (Nov 20, 2011 3:44:29 AM)
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