Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:43:02 PM)
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Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:43:10 PM)
youre a pain in the ass dude
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:43:16 PM)
:)
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:43:30 PM)
^_^ thank you! i was worried that no one noticed the effort
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:44:51 PM)
http://www.darkprovidence.com/wiki/-Davon-_Erikka_Thrush -- that's Erikka's background, as it stands now... i know things work way differently in old world... i'm still trying to figure wolf and demon out before i tackle my mage's background
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:45:20 PM)
shes cute
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:45:21 PM)
:D
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:45:30 PM)
you should see her other pictures *snerk*
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:45:59 PM)
i wanna seeeeeee
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:24 PM)
those two were the only two i could get away with putting on the site... stupid admins for my old chat were neurotic about keeping everything PG... or, at the very least, PG-13
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:48 PM)
yeah well i wanna see the rest... if i have to read through all this stuff i deserve a treat
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:49 PM)
lol
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:58 PM)
lemme see if i can find her
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:58 PM)
hang on
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:47:44 PM)
ahh, here she is... btw, just as a warning, some of these shots are definately NSFW http://www.modelmayhem.com/portfolio/771420/viewall
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:48:21 PM)
niiiiiiiice
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:48:23 PM)
im not at work
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:48:24 PM)
:D
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:48:45 PM)
*shrugs* just didn't want you to get in trouble with your bosses if you were
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:49:12 PM)
and you haven't seen some of my best finds... wait until you see Isabella... or, hell, for that matter, wait until you see Nerys
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:49:53 PM)
http://www.modelmayhem.com/portfolio/877809/viewall -- Isabella
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:49:56 PM)
http://www.modelmayhem.com/portfolio/1753845/viewall -- Nerys
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:50:28 PM)
who are they?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:50:40 PM)
Izzy's my demon... Nerys is my wolf
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:50:52 PM)
at least, they will be, if i ever finish the damn backgrounds
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:50:55 PM)
lol
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:51:12 PM)
i'm having to take a break from Izzy because i'm starting to burnout on the venue before i even play in it...
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:51:26 PM)
how come?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:51:59 PM)
i have spent over a week planning her... a week writing her... only to find out i have to rewrite over half of the background
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:52:11 PM)
hwo come?
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:52:17 PM)
how
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:53:00 PM)
because Omen said her background is that of two different characters and that i needed to pick one half of the background, either the demon or the human, and rewrite the other half
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:53:28 PM)
ahhh suckage
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:53:41 PM)
your mage would be a good euthanatos or cultist
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:11 PM)
she's not that difficult of a character, truth be told... she's pretty run-of-the-mill, as far as demon goes... it's just giving me a headache (and a fucking ulcer) trying to write her background out, only to be told to rewrite it
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:24 PM)
yeah i getcha
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:28 PM)
mage is much easier
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:29 PM)
i'm not even thinking about Erikka right now...
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:37 PM)
though really different from nwod
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:45 PM)
wolf is really different too
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:58 PM)
Ogre (hubby) told me the gist of the venue and she'll be really easy to rewrite to fit into owod
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:55:37 PM)
youre playing with really experienced players... youre gonna need to know more then the gist
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:55:45 PM)
hence the books
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:55:49 PM)
or your char will probably die
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:55:50 PM)
heheh
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:13 PM)
but i've found that juggling only two characters tends to make me less violently ill than if i try to juggle three
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:21 PM)
nod nod
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:29 PM)
then forget demon and make a mage
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:31 PM)
heheh
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:34 PM)
can't
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:40 PM)
i made a promise to someone to roll in demon
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:50 PM)
ahhh who?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:53 PM)
room-mate
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:06 PM)
which char?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:13 PM)
umm... i think Chastity?
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:24 PM)
ahh cool he seems like a cool dude
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:33 PM)
hun, you have no idea
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:43 PM)
lol why is that?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:58:38 PM)
he's lived with us for... almost two and a half months... the first two months, he was here with his girlfriend... only to find out that the entire time she lived here, she was cheating on him with someone else, cutting class in order to play online, her grades were slipping because she stayed logged onto games and chats during lecture instead of paying attention...
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:59:22 PM)
lol jesus
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:59:41 PM)
and don't even get me started on her hygiene... now, i'm female... i know what it's like to have a uterus try to forcibly crawl it's way out thru your va-jay-jay every month, leaving a giant blood stain in it's wake... however, i also know how to clean up after a particularly bad day...
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:59:54 PM)
ewwwwwwwwwww
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:00:31 PM)
no one can use the second bathroom in this house because of her... there's blood stains, puddles, and smears of rotting blood all over that bathroom... i didn't find out about it until after she left
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:00:46 PM)
that is gross
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:01:05 PM)
and have to wait until the boys get paid again so i can get latex gloves and some bleach... and other cleaning supplies... as well as a mask... and go in there and clean up
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:01:12 PM)
honey, you didn't have to see it
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:01 PM)
i still have problems breathing after spending only a couple of minutes in there... do you have any idea the lung complications that are created from breathing the dust of rotted and dried-up blood?
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:21 PM)
lolol
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:24 PM)
get a maid
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:31 PM)
can't afford it
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:55 PM)
besides, i'm home all the time due to my... >.> sickness... so it's just easier for me to clean it myself and save the money
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:05:11 PM)
nod nod
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:05:15 PM)
what you sick with?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:05:34 PM)
*chews inside of bottom lip*... it's a... long story
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:06:02 PM)
yeah but you brought it up
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:06:18 PM)
so now i am curious... so psynopsize!
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:06:37 PM)
let's just leave it at it's not something that you would be able to point out and go "she's sick"....
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:07:40 PM)
what the heck is it?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:23 PM)
something invisible.. something that, unless i stay drugged to the gills, could end up being deadly, if not for myself, for other people
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:42 PM)
hiv?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:45 PM)
no
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:46 PM)
ebola?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:59 PM)
nothing like that... because those have outward expressions of illness
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:08 PM)
oh just say so silly ass
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:25 PM)
... did you ever stop to think that it's embarrassing to admit that i'm sick?
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:41 PM)
yes but you already admitted it
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:45 PM)
and im not judgemental
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:47 PM)
:)
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:11:06 PM)
*sigh* fine... i have post-traumatic stress disorder with atypical skitzo-affective-type hallucinations, compounded with petit mal epileptic-type seizures
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:16:41 PM)
O.o *sighs* great, and i scared him off
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:17:43 PM)
hey no sorry wife called
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:17:58 PM)
were you in the military or what?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:18:23 PM)
no, the military deemed me a possible psychological liability back when i was 17
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:18:42 PM)
ahh so just crazy then? heheh *hugs*
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:19:27 PM)
my earliest memory of my mother was actually written out in Erikka's background... the scene where her mother fractured her skull against the counter was ripped straight from my childhood
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:19:41 PM)
jesus
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:19:49 PM)
thats some fucked up shit
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:20:36 PM)
she's broken both of my wrists, half a dozen times a piece... broke my nose at least twice... punched me so hard that it actually cracked the orbital around my eye and i had to wear an eye patch for the better part of a year to keep from losing the eye....
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:20:55 PM)
sorry to hear that hun
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:21:04 PM)
i've got little line scars all over my back, from shoulders to hips, from where she took a belt to my back and ribboned my skin
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:21:32 PM)
wel understandable why yure so traumatized
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:22:40 PM)
that's where i get the skitzoid tendencies with hallucinations... the PTSD is from my step-father sexually assaulting me from the time i was 8 until i was 11... and then a boyfriend raping me when i was 19... needless to say, i have severe issues with sex and sexuality....
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:22:59 PM)
i getcha
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:23:18 PM)
so its easier to do a lot online and relax about it i would imagine
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:24:19 PM)
people talk about evil... about how cruel people cal be... murderers like John Wayne Gacy or Charles Mason... *smh* they have no fucking CLUE what evil is... they've not looked into the dead eyes of the woman who birthed them after she's beaten them so severely, it hurts to even exist, let alone breathe...
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:24:31 PM)
can, not cal
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:25:04 PM)
yeah the world can be a fucked up place and most people cant really comprehend what evil is
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:27:28 PM)
the really messed up thing is i now know the military was right... because, tho i didn't realise it at the time, i wanted to join in order to find an outlet for my rage against my parents... i wanted to be turned into a killer... ever since i was little, i've had dreams about killing people... most people, seeing yourself slaughter someone would send them running to the doctor for drugs... for me, it was calming...
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:27:56 PM)
yeah thats pretty typical
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:28:06 PM)
its ok i'm nuts too
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:28:35 PM)
hell, even now, Ogre doesn't allow me around sharp objects... if i'm cooking and have to dice chicken or something, i have to get someone else to do it...
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:29:13 PM)
the only sharp object i have access to when he's not here is his katana... and that's for self-defense and security... we live in a rather sketchy neighbourhood
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:29:39 PM)
jeebus woman
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:32:15 PM)
most of that is for my own protection, tho... i used to be a cutter... even now, tho i haven't cut in... *stops and counts*... 15 months, if i get really stressed out or scared, i still have to lock myself in the baby's bedroom until the urge goes away... most of the time, the cat comes with me and curls up in my lap...
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:32:33 PM)
it's pretty fucked up to have a touch-stone that's a two and a half pound cat
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:34:00 PM)
seeing a doc about it?
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:34:09 PM)
no insurence
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:34:22 PM)
they have free health aide in most places
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:34:48 PM)
i was going to group therapy in Virginia before i moved back to Florida in August... but, here, unless you're pregnant or a recovering drug addict, they don't give a shit about you
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:00 PM)
you should take up meditation though it really helps
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:01 PM)
hell, even the mental hospitals are little more than prisons...
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:10 PM)
nod nod
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:20 PM)
i do tai chi... it helps some, but not as much anymore...
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:44 PM)
you need to take hardcore meditation... it really does give you calm and peace of mind
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:53 PM)
i build up tolerances to things really fast... medication, meditation, whatever... it'll work for a month, two... five... then it stops working
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:36:56 PM)
meditation doesnt ever stop working
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:37:03 PM)
because its not just mental its physical
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:37:27 PM)
the only time i have ever truly felt normal was when i was at the barn, surrounded by thousands of pounds of horseflesh... the smell of hay, horse sweat and leather eventually becoming a constant perfum on my skin, mud and other chunks of stuff sticking to my boots to the point i wasn't allowed to wear them inside the house....
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:38:13 PM)
i can't just sit down on the floor, stare at a candle and expect all of my stress and worries to go away... i've tried that; it doesn't work... tai chi works some, but not nearly as much as people have said it was supposed to...
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:07 PM)
yeah meditations isnt that... its about only allowing one thought to occupy your mind and so you get overload like when you were in the barn... all other things leave yoru consciousness and you feel at peace... seriously try real medictation its awesome
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:24 PM)
its not a fix all it just helps
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:47 PM)
ok lunch time ill be bak later
Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:52 PM)
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SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:55 PM)
yeah, i gotta go fold laundry
SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 8:45:13 PM)
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