SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:42:47 PM)
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Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:43:02 PM)
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Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:43:10 PM)
youre a pain in the ass dude

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:43:16 PM)
:)

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:43:30 PM)
^_^ thank you! i was worried that no one noticed the effort

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:44:51 PM)
http://www.darkprovidence.com/wiki/-Davon-_Erikka_Thrush -- that's Erikka's background, as it stands now... i know things work way differently in old world... i'm still trying to figure wolf and demon out before i tackle my mage's background

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:45:20 PM)
shes cute

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:45:21 PM)
:D

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:45:30 PM)
you should see her other pictures *snerk*

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:45:59 PM)
i wanna seeeeeee

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:24 PM)
those two were the only two i could get away with putting on the site... stupid admins for my old chat were neurotic about keeping everything PG... or, at the very least, PG-13

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:48 PM)
yeah well i wanna see the rest... if i have to read through all this stuff i deserve a treat

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:49 PM)
lol

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:58 PM)
lemme see if i can find her

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:46:58 PM)
hang on

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:47:44 PM)
ahh, here she is... btw, just as a warning, some of these shots are definately NSFW http://www.modelmayhem.com/portfolio/771420/viewall

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:48:21 PM)
niiiiiiiice

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:48:23 PM)
im not at work

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:48:24 PM)
:D

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:48:45 PM)
*shrugs* just didn't want you to get in trouble with your bosses if you were

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:49:12 PM)
and you haven't seen some of my best finds... wait until you see Isabella... or, hell, for that matter, wait until you see Nerys

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:49:53 PM)
http://www.modelmayhem.com/portfolio/877809/viewall -- Isabella

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:49:56 PM)
http://www.modelmayhem.com/portfolio/1753845/viewall -- Nerys

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:50:28 PM)
who are they?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:50:40 PM)
Izzy's my demon... Nerys is my wolf

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:50:52 PM)
at least, they will be, if i ever finish the damn backgrounds

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:50:55 PM)
lol

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:51:12 PM)
i'm having to take a break from Izzy because i'm starting to burnout on the venue before i even play in it...

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:51:26 PM)
how come?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:51:59 PM)
i have spent over a week planning her... a week writing her... only to find out i have to rewrite over half of the background

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:52:11 PM)
hwo come?

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:52:17 PM)
how

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:53:00 PM)
because Omen said her background is that of two different characters and that i needed to pick one half of the background, either the demon or the human, and rewrite the other half

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:53:28 PM)
ahhh suckage

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:53:41 PM)
your mage would be a good euthanatos or cultist

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:11 PM)
she's not that difficult of a character, truth be told... she's pretty run-of-the-mill, as far as demon goes... it's just giving me a headache (and a fucking ulcer) trying to write her background out, only to be told to rewrite it

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:24 PM)
yeah i getcha

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:28 PM)
mage is much easier

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:29 PM)
i'm not even thinking about Erikka right now...

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:37 PM)
though really different from nwod

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:45 PM)
wolf is really different too

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:54:58 PM)
Ogre (hubby) told me the gist of the venue and she'll be really easy to rewrite to fit into owod

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:55:37 PM)
youre playing with really experienced players... youre gonna need to know more then the gist

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:55:45 PM)
hence the books

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:55:49 PM)
or your char will probably die

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:55:50 PM)
heheh

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:13 PM)
but i've found that juggling only two characters tends to make me less violently ill than if i try to juggle three

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:21 PM)
nod nod

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:29 PM)
then forget demon and make a mage

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:31 PM)
heheh

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:34 PM)
can't

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:40 PM)
i made a promise to someone to roll in demon

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:50 PM)
ahhh who?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:56:53 PM)
room-mate

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:06 PM)
which char?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:13 PM)
umm... i think Chastity?

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:24 PM)
ahh cool he seems like a cool dude

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:33 PM)
hun, you have no idea

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:57:43 PM)
lol why is that?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:58:38 PM)
he's lived with us for... almost two and a half months... the first two months, he was here with his girlfriend... only to find out that the entire time she lived here, she was cheating on him with someone else, cutting class in order to play online, her grades were slipping because she stayed logged onto games and chats during lecture instead of paying attention...

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:59:22 PM)
lol jesus

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 3:59:41 PM)
and don't even get me started on her hygiene... now, i'm female... i know what it's like to have a uterus try to forcibly crawl it's way out thru your va-jay-jay every month, leaving a giant blood stain in it's wake... however, i also know how to clean up after a particularly bad day...

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 3:59:54 PM)
ewwwwwwwwwww

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:00:31 PM)
no one can use the second bathroom in this house because of her... there's blood stains, puddles, and smears of rotting blood all over that bathroom... i didn't find out about it until after she left

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:00:46 PM)
that is gross

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:01:05 PM)
and have to wait until the boys get paid again so i can get latex gloves and some bleach... and other cleaning supplies... as well as a mask... and go in there and clean up

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:01:12 PM)
honey, you didn't have to see it

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:01 PM)
i still have problems breathing after spending only a couple of minutes in there... do you have any idea the lung complications that are created from breathing the dust of rotted and dried-up blood?

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:21 PM)
lolol

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:24 PM)
get a maid

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:31 PM)
can't afford it

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:02:55 PM)
besides, i'm home all the time due to my... >.> sickness... so it's just easier for me to clean it myself and save the money

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:05:11 PM)
nod nod

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:05:15 PM)
what you sick with?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:05:34 PM)
*chews inside of bottom lip*... it's a... long story

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:06:02 PM)
yeah but you brought it up

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:06:18 PM)
so now i am curious... so psynopsize!

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:06:37 PM)
let's just leave it at it's not something that you would be able to point out and go "she's sick"....

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:07:40 PM)
what the heck is it?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:23 PM)
something invisible.. something that, unless i stay drugged to the gills, could end up being deadly, if not for myself, for other people

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:42 PM)
hiv?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:45 PM)
no

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:46 PM)
ebola?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:08:59 PM)
nothing like that... because those have outward expressions of illness

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:08 PM)
oh just say so silly ass

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:25 PM)
... did you ever stop to think that it's embarrassing to admit that i'm sick?

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:41 PM)
yes but you already admitted it

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:45 PM)
and im not judgemental

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:09:47 PM)
:)

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:11:06 PM)
*sigh* fine... i have post-traumatic stress disorder with atypical skitzo-affective-type hallucinations, compounded with petit mal epileptic-type seizures

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:16:41 PM)
O.o *sighs* great, and i scared him off

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:17:43 PM)
hey no sorry wife called

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:17:58 PM)
were you in the military or what?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:18:23 PM)
no, the military deemed me a possible psychological liability back when i was 17

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:18:42 PM)
ahh so just crazy then? heheh *hugs*

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:19:27 PM)
my earliest memory of my mother was actually written out in Erikka's background... the scene where her mother fractured her skull against the counter was ripped straight from my childhood

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:19:41 PM)
jesus

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:19:49 PM)
thats some fucked up shit

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:20:36 PM)
she's broken both of my wrists, half a dozen times a piece... broke my nose at least twice... punched me so hard that it actually cracked the orbital around my eye and i had to wear an eye patch for the better part of a year to keep from losing the eye....

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:20:55 PM)
sorry to hear that hun

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:21:04 PM)
i've got little line scars all over my back, from shoulders to hips, from where she took a belt to my back and ribboned my skin

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:21:32 PM)
wel understandable why yure so traumatized

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:22:40 PM)
that's where i get the skitzoid tendencies with hallucinations... the PTSD is from my step-father sexually assaulting me from the time i was 8 until i was 11... and then a boyfriend raping me when i was 19... needless to say, i have severe issues with sex and sexuality....

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:22:59 PM)
i getcha

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:23:18 PM)
so its easier to do a lot online and relax about it i would imagine

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:24:19 PM)
people talk about evil... about how cruel people cal be... murderers like John Wayne Gacy or Charles Mason... *smh* they have no fucking CLUE what evil is... they've not looked into the dead eyes of the woman who birthed them after she's beaten them so severely, it hurts to even exist, let alone breathe...

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:24:31 PM)
can, not cal

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:25:04 PM)
yeah the world can be a fucked up place and most people cant really comprehend what evil is

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:27:28 PM)
the really messed up thing is i now know the military was right... because, tho i didn't realise it at the time, i wanted to join in order to find an outlet for my rage against my parents... i wanted to be turned into a killer... ever since i was little, i've had dreams about killing people... most people, seeing yourself slaughter someone would send them running to the doctor for drugs... for me, it was calming...

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:27:56 PM)
yeah thats pretty typical

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:28:06 PM)
its ok i'm nuts too

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:28:35 PM)
hell, even now, Ogre doesn't allow me around sharp objects... if i'm cooking and have to dice chicken or something, i have to get someone else to do it...

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:29:13 PM)
the only sharp object i have access to when he's not here is his katana... and that's for self-defense and security... we live in a rather sketchy neighbourhood

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:29:39 PM)
jeebus woman

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:32:15 PM)
most of that is for my own protection, tho... i used to be a cutter... even now, tho i haven't cut in... *stops and counts*... 15 months, if i get really stressed out or scared, i still have to lock myself in the baby's bedroom until the urge goes away... most of the time, the cat comes with me and curls up in my lap...

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:32:33 PM)
it's pretty fucked up to have a touch-stone that's a two and a half pound cat

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:34:00 PM)
seeing a doc about it?

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:34:09 PM)
no insurence

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:34:22 PM)
they have free health aide in most places

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:34:48 PM)
i was going to group therapy in Virginia before i moved back to Florida in August... but, here, unless you're pregnant or a recovering drug addict, they don't give a shit about you

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:00 PM)
you should take up meditation though it really helps

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:01 PM)
hell, even the mental hospitals are little more than prisons...

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:10 PM)
nod nod

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:20 PM)
i do tai chi... it helps some, but not as much anymore...

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:44 PM)
you need to take hardcore meditation... it really does give you calm and peace of mind

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:35:53 PM)
i build up tolerances to things really fast... medication, meditation, whatever... it'll work for a month, two... five... then it stops working

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:36:56 PM)
meditation doesnt ever stop working

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:37:03 PM)
because its not just mental its physical

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:37:27 PM)
the only time i have ever truly felt normal was when i was at the barn, surrounded by thousands of pounds of horseflesh... the smell of hay, horse sweat and leather eventually becoming a constant perfum on my skin, mud and other chunks of stuff sticking to my boots to the point i wasn't allowed to wear them inside the house....

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:38:13 PM)
i can't just sit down on the floor, stare at a candle and expect all of my stress and worries to go away... i've tried that; it doesn't work... tai chi works some, but not nearly as much as people have said it was supposed to...

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:07 PM)
yeah meditations isnt that... its about only allowing one thought to occupy your mind and so you get overload like when you were in the barn... all other things leave yoru consciousness and you feel at peace... seriously try real medictation its awesome

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:24 PM)
its not a fix all it just helps

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:47 PM)
ok lunch time ill be bak later

Jordan Malave (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:52 PM)
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SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 4:39:55 PM)
yeah, i gotta go fold laundry

SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 8:45:13 PM)
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SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 9:45:13 PM)
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SerenePrincess OOC (Nov 9, 2010 10:59:21 PM)
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