Adelyn Holt (Nov 9, 2011 11:59:57 PM)
"I look over with some mild interest to the affairs of the family business and want to look after my family, of course. I used to have things that I wanted to do. A career that would identify so much into who I am that it would be part of me. It's how we are. We say what we do in an initial conversation because that's part of how we see ourselves and each other. I don't think that's become any less true. It's just that instead of 'Adelyn the Doctor, Lawyer, Scientist, Engineer," or what-have-you, it's just... "Adelyn, the Garou." It's sort of become how I identify myself. Outside of it, I think... I think I'm lacking in those mundane goals. Is that bad?"

Ashur Morningkill (Nov 10, 2011 12:02:54 AM)
"No. I think that one of the cruellest things that's done to us as Garou are that we're given so many years of humanity first. So long to taste what everyone else experiences. School, friendships, dreams, goals, plans. Even if you know of the Nation, you can't really understand what it means for you. The war. The Rage. Having everything twisted and turned upside down." *He shuts his eyes, breathing a soft sigh* "The change in how everything is is just so strong... you could almost forget what you wanted to be once upon a time. I can hardly even remember what I used to do for fun... and I was a 'human' a great deal longer than I've been a Garou."

Adelyn Holt (Nov 10, 2011 12:07:43 AM)
"The intensity found in the life we've taken to ends up overtaking all of our past experiences and making everything before it seem so dull. Likewise, these life and death battles we have regularly make it difficult to sit down in front of a television and watch some movies and really relax and unwind. Maybe for a little while, but it creeps up again. It's always there with you. What did you want to do before?"

Ashur Morningkill (Nov 10, 2011 12:14:48 AM)
*His eyes flutter open and his brow knits* "I... don't really remember. I guess from an early age it had been battered into me who and what I was, and what that was going to be. I tried not to make too many plans, or... don't remember the ones I did make. Most of the ones that I did keep involved Ch-" *He cut himself off, shutting his eyes and falling silent mid-sentence again*

Adelyn Holt (Nov 10, 2011 12:15:59 AM)
"i'm sorry if I've pressed upon something uncomfortable. Do you want to talk about it anyway? Maybe it'd be ... therapeutic?"

Ashur Morningkill (Nov 10, 2011 12:18:10 AM)
"I can't imagine it would be." *He answered, finding his mouth had suddenly turned dry. His brow furrowed as he squeezed his eyes shut tighter. The conversation continued, but in the mental packlink that they shared with one another, blocking those others in the pack from the private conversation* ~PL~ "In my First Change... I killed someone very near to me."

Adelyn Holt (Nov 10, 2011 12:23:04 AM)
There weren't really words that could express the sorrow and empathy for what that meant to him and to all of those whose first change had gone down a similarly violent path. At the risk of bodily injury, she just scooted over to him and wrapped an arm around him for a warm hug. It was sincere, and he was held tightly--but not too long, if she'd not already lost a limb already.

Ashur Morningkill (Nov 10, 2011 12:24:54 AM)
*The gesture was reciprocated by Ashur. Though Rage-filled and a vision of standoffishness to everyone else, within the pack he maintained a closeness and love that was synonymous with family anywhere else. And so, his arm wrapped around her in a tight embrace* ~PL~ "She was my Kinfolk. We would've been mated together."

Adelyn Holt (Nov 10, 2011 12:31:56 AM)
Through the packlink, she spoke as well so that the thoughts might be accompanied by the direct warmth of what she was feeling and the empathy might convey itself all on its own. "A tragic sacrifice made in the name of a trueborn's call to fight a timeless war. May your combative strikes be as true as the loss that's already struck you."

Ashur Morningkill (Nov 10, 2011 12:36:34 AM)
"No!" *The words erupted vocally from him and he flung Adelyn away. Even outside his warforms, he was powerful and the throw sent her tumbling away* "There was no sacrifice, or upside to that! It was a frenzy! A stupid and horrible lack of control that cost the Nation and worsened our Tribe as a whole through her loss!"

Adelyn Holt (Nov 10, 2011 12:40:04 AM)
Adelyn rolled across the grass, and while it was jarring, she wasn't injured either. Fortunate, considering what could happen at any second. She raised a hand, as though to keep the peace by it. "It's... our design. It's how it happens for many, and it has happened that way for generations before us. There is no upside, I know. I -know-. But it is the nature of things. It is the nature of us, and surely there must be some purpose in our design. Would you be as fueled as you are to fight were it not for... " She paused, thinking better too late to make the argument. "There's... method to the madness, isn't there?"

Ashur Morningkill (Nov 10, 2011 12:41:54 AM)
"You would do well to neither justify nor excuse what I did that night to me ever again." *He snarled at her, rising off of the grass. Again, the Rage about his form was almost tangible as it rolled off of him in waves and the sense of impending attack was written all over his form* "Do you understand me, Spirit Hive?" *The lack of honorific applied after her name a rarity*

Adelyn Holt (Nov 10, 2011 12:44:21 AM)
As Ashur rose to his feet, she did the same in a scramble of intention to have to defend herself should there be further consequence. "I just... I ... I understand." She took a step or three back for distance. Don't piss off the enraged Garou, and if you do? Don't stand too near.

Ashur Morningkill (Nov 10, 2011 12:51:07 AM)
*He hesitated, looking as though he'd clearly intended to dole out some degree of physical punishment for the trespass as well, but now lacked the pretext as she hurriedly apologized. Starting to speak again, he found nothing ready on his tongue and his mouth clicked shut. Making an inarticulate snort of frustration and anger, he started back toward the packhouse*

Adelyn Holt (Nov 10, 2011 12:53:56 AM)
After letting him go ahead, she followed far behind him to the packhouse. There were dozens of things she wanted to say, but none of them if she wanted to keep herself without injury.

Ashur Morningkill (Nov 10, 2011 1:01:39 AM)
*Unless otherwise impeded, he continued to the privacy of his room*

Adelyn Holt (Nov 10, 2011 1:05:57 AM)
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