Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:41:13 AM)
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Maggie-Mae Sage (Feb 13, 2011 2:42:38 AM)
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Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:44:06 AM)
*he would arrive home with her and immediately begin to strip off his jacket and shirt. popping the pill into his mouth and setting the small jar on a nearby table whenhe was done* sorry about that i didnt think itd be a problem....

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:53:49 AM)
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Maggie-Mae Sage (Feb 13, 2011 2:59:02 AM)
freeikign criding ht a hurt to bad, im, onnag et glat, i ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Maggie-Mae Sage (Feb 13, 2011 2:59:13 AM)
(SOrry leand on it sitting ack down)

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:59:20 AM)
you ok?

Maggie-Mae Sage (Feb 13, 2011 2:59:22 AM)
(hon i want to get flat)

Maggie-Mae Sage (Feb 13, 2011 2:59:30 AM)
(no i hurt bad)

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:59:45 AM)
[[kk its fine you wanna just go lay down and we can play latre?]]

Maggie-Mae Sage (Feb 13, 2011 2:59:55 AM)
(find you soon

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Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 3:00:06 AM)
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Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 12:59:02 PM)
Amber would have called to let Jordan know she was coming over. Soon, he'd hear the familiar rat-a-tat-tat of her knocking on his door. She's standing outside his home, dressed in her old street clothes, fidgeting with her hands behind her back.

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:01:08 PM)
*he would stumble over to the door. the call not much of a warning as he thought it wa s a dream anyway. still alightly drunk and high he would openthe door for her wiping sleep from his eyes and nodding a hello with a wave inside. naked and disheveled it had been a long night. making his way to the bar he would grab a bottle of tequila and sip slowly from it.* is it morning already?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:07:32 PM)
"Yeah..." Amber looks him over, taking in his disheveled state. "Did you as sleep none? You look as like you had it real rough."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:09:00 PM)
not much... *he smiled* and rough....ah not really so much as overdid it a bit. so whats up kido? *plopping down on thecouch he would keep the bottle close and swig from it occaisionally.

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:11:14 PM)
"Um...is it true as what Maggie said the other day? About fear? She told me as her folks were about as experiencing the cycle, while yours were more about the end of it...but that don't quite sound as like what you told me 'bout yours." She slowly settles down on the other end of the couch.

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:14:44 PM)
well... yeah they have lots of fear hangups.... i dont really know why, but thats a big misunderstanding about us. you see we're not so much hung up on the end of the cycle as focused on the restart of the cycle.... if you dont clear away theold you cant make room for the new yknow? so its kind of like we try and make sure that the cycle continues....

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:16:16 PM)
She nods. "That as makes sense...will you as tell me more?" She looks down at her hands, clasped nervously in front of her. "I don't think as I'm gonna fit in anywhere else...for one reason as or another."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:18:07 PM)
ahh.... welldon'tjump into it or anything... its a huge commitment. If you really decide its the way you wantto go i am here with you a hundred percent, and i'll takeyou on as a student, but it's a big deal and its not something to come into lightly you get me? *his voice suddenly somber and serious*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:19:34 PM)
"I ain't sure as I do understand," Amber says. "What's it mean to be part of something like this?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:20:25 PM)
it's an entire lifestyle change and commitment to something bigger then yourself... it's not like joining a club, this will change your perceptions and become a part of who you are.

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:20:49 PM)
Amber tilts her head to one side. "It's as that big?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:21:55 PM)
yeah... its that big. You'll be asked to do things you dont want to or arent comfortable with, things you never thought you would or could,

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:22:27 PM)
She raises an eyebrow. "Why?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:24:56 PM)
because as you grow you learn lessons about the universe and yoru place in it hun... right now this is like a big giant tapestry, and youveonly been allowed to see a tiny square of it.... as you pull back and see more and more you begin to realize you had no idea what the fucking picture ever was, and then you start to see that its not really a picture at all but all these tiny little colored threads.... and then you realize that youre one of those threads and a part of that picture...

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:25:36 PM)
"I meant as...why would I as be asked to do things I don't want?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:26:35 PM)
because thats life punkin... your mind is biased because of your perception... and really you cant know until you experience

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:27:47 PM)
She's still just looking at him...her stubborn expression saying this isn't a good answer. "I won't as be forced to do stuff I don't want. Not for no one."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:28:12 PM)
yeah really? you sure about that?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:28:41 PM)
"Yeah." She sits up on the sofa, looking curiously at him. "Why?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:29:13 PM)
so you're telling me you chose to be homeless? you chose to not have a family, or to be scared so much?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:30:37 PM)
She nods. Once. Twice. Then she looks up at him...and he can see the fear in her eyes. What he might think of her. "They was trying to make me something I ain't."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:32:05 PM)
the point is that you dont have to be afraid... being a mage isntabout cool powers and fucking shit up... its about seizing the choice for your own destiny and molding it yourself... you are forced to do things all the time you dont want to by outside forces... i mean look at something as simple as taking a poop... now do you really enjoy taking a poop?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:33:19 PM)
Amber shrugs. "It's something as you got to do. But that don't mean I got to let no one force me to do other stuff. I ain't seizing my own destiny if I'm as signing up to let folks force me to do shit."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:36:56 PM)
just listen and stop being hardheaded... its called an analogy you little turd. *he smiled at her* now pooping is gross but its a part of the deal... you eatyou poop, because thats the way the universe says it has to be... but it doesnt... there are mages who never poop because they dont want to. Now to get there they had to learn, and unfortunately we only learn by doing things we dont want to. And if you think hey fuck it this sounds too hard i'm just gonna do my own thing and the traditions are assholes anyway think about it this way... how many self taught masters in any feild have you ever seen?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:40:00 PM)
"Ain't seen any masters." She shakes her head. "Learning's as a choice. Mike told me as I'd get hurt if he was gonna teach me how to fight; he gave me a chance as to back out, though. I said as I didn't mind getting hurt if he'd as teach me." She leans back on the couch. "I ain't gonna enter into something if I don't get that choice. Ain't just gonna turn myself over and say do whatever you want as long as you teach me, you know?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:42:52 PM)
but you already did... its the same choice. you either do things you dont want to and learn... like getting punched in the face now and then.... or you dont, and you go it on your own. the problem is one day that choice will be taken from you no matter what you do. there are people out there who want nothing more then to shut your eyes forever... they will find you and they will kill you. they only real decision you have to make is if you want to make a willing choice to guide where your life goes or to be a slave to destiny as you have been up until this point.

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:47:45 PM)
"I ain't no slave to nothing," Amber says fiercely. "And I hate as folks telling me what I am and what I ain't." She shoves her hands into her pockets, planting her feet firmly on the floor. "I just want to know now if I'm as gonna get that choice. I don't mind if you ask me to do stuff as I don't like - but I ain't joining nothing if it means I don't get to say no. I ain't going into nothing blindfolded - I want to be able to as make my decisions, even if as what I decide means I don't learn or I can't be nothing no more."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:49:04 PM)
you're a slave to everything... and until you open your eyes to that reality and decide you don't want to be a slave anymore theres nothing i can do to help you.

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:50:22 PM)
"That as part of your worldview?" she asks challengingly.

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:51:29 PM)
no that's a part of reality... a slave who doesnt think he is a slave can never be free. you're already in a system that has eliminated your ability to choose.

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:53:50 PM)
"I can still choose things. I'm as choosing to sit here and talk to you right now. No one as made me do that." She leans back, letting out a long sigh. Like she's trying to get all the frustration and anger out of her. "If you're trying to say as what everyone thinks of as reality limits my choices? Yeah, I can as agree with you there. But it don't mean as I don't got any."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:55:31 PM)
what would you say if i told you that every day the things you "choose" to do are really being sent directly into your brain by some dude ina lab somewhere? and that one day he will make every singledecision in your life for you?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:55:58 PM)
"Why would some dude as be doing that?" Amber asks, frowning.

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:56:42 PM)
because to control the world you have to control everything in it... do you really think the whole war with the techies is just cus we dont like each other

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:56:51 PM)
?

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:56:59 PM)
so many people die and kill for shits and giggles?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:57:40 PM)
She shakes her head. "I didn't as think that. But there ain't enough of them as to control every single person as direct like that, is there?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 1:58:11 PM)
there dont need to be... they have magic to do it for them... you ever play sims?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 1:59:42 PM)
"Nope! One of my friends as had it, though..." She frowns. "Do you really think as they'd do stuff as like that, though? They can't as do it for everyone...if they did, wouldn't they just have made me walk up to them and as get killed or sommut?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:00:59 PM)
thats their ultimate goal... which is why we have to make sure we balance things in the other direction. Dont get me wrong i dont think they are evil... i think their goals are misguided. but by the time they figure it out itll be too late. the world will die and our chance will be gone...

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:01:44 PM)
"So..." She blinks. "Where's this as fit in with what we was just talking 'bout?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:02:44 PM)
you need to decide if you want to keep your ability to choose and do things you might not always agree with or know why at the moment... or you need to decide if you just wanna fiddle while rome burns so to speak

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:05:13 PM)
"I ain't convinced the choice is so drastic as what you're saying," she says. She looks at him for a moment, then flops back into the couch. "I believe as you believe it, though. I got to know, though. I got to know as what the end goal is...and what shit I might as got to do to get there. I ain't gonna kill no one."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:06:15 PM)
you may have to.... but everyone may have to... its not like youre going to be forced to go against who you are, but you will be forced to find out who you really are deep down. and that can be really shitty sometimes.

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:06:48 PM)
i guess you can say the only thing you will be forced to do beyond your control would be choose...

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:08:25 PM)
She lets out a deep breath, calming down. "Tell me as more about your folks? You said as my perceptions would change..."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:10:11 PM)
i can't really.... you can ask questions and i can try and answer them but i can't really go into depth about my peoples until you are one... and i know that sounds shitty but thats the way it has to be... just because if youre not in it a lot of the things "it" entails can be really easily misunderstood yknow?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:11:02 PM)
She nods. "Yeah, I as get that. All of 'em are like that, ain't they?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:12:50 PM)
yeah pretty much... its a matter of self preservation really yknow?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:13:39 PM)
"Yeah." She shrugs. "Lots of societies are as like that." She deliberates for a minute, then asks, "How will I as know? If as it's right for me?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:14:16 PM)
*he shrugged* only you can really answer that doll... you have to go with your guts.

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:14:42 PM)
"What if I'm scared?" she asks, trying to pretend she's not.

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:15:35 PM)
that's never gonna really go away. you just have to learn how to manage it... *he smiled* i'd give youa hug right now but i don't want you to freak out even more. *he smiled at her*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:16:49 PM)
Amber smiles back. "Thanks..." She folds her hands behind her head, leaning back and getting comfy. "I can't as decide today...maybe I'll as ask the fire. That's as how I figure stuff out sometimes."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:17:26 PM)
thats a good idea... justtake your time and sort it out... if you want me to help ill help you however i can no matter what you choose ok?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:17:59 PM)
She nods. "Thanks...and as thanks for understanding."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:18:16 PM)
dude its the least i can do....

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:18:48 PM)
"What do you mean?" she asks, looking at him curiously. "It ain't like I done nothing for you."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:19:37 PM)
you dont have to... *he smiled* we all have a duty yknow? help the world be a better place if we can

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:20:04 PM)
A smile creeps slowly onto her face. "I guess so..."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:20:25 PM)
sooo think i can get that hug? *he smiled a bit and extended his arms towards her*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:21:21 PM)
"Alright," she says, shaking her head and grinning. "Just a quick one, though." She leans forward and gives him a quick, awkward hug.

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:22:10 PM)
*he would laugh and grip her tightly for a split second and then release her just as quickly before she got the chance to spaz* there... feel like theres closure now.... *he chukled*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:22:55 PM)
She laughs. "Thanks...maybe eventually I'll as learn not to freak out when you and Ceilidh do that..."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:23:36 PM)
some day you wont.... and then youll fucking love hugging like no ones business. *he smiled*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:24:30 PM)
Amber chuckles at that. "Yeah, yeah...I do as miss it sometimes."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:25:24 PM)
well anytime you wanna just lemmie know... then who knows one day we'll make out and celebrate cus you're so adorable.*he laughed and waggled his eyebrows at her to accentuate the joke*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:27:27 PM)
She laughs, making a shooing gesture at him. "I think I'm as too young for you..."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:28:06 PM)
hey you're legal and i'm a dirty old man... *he grinned*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:28:48 PM)
"Yeah, yeah." She giggles. "How do you know as I'm legal? You ever asked?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:29:31 PM)
true.... *he laughed a bit* so are you legal or am i an even bigger perv?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:30:02 PM)
"I'm legal." She laughs at him. "Just as barely, though."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:30:34 PM)
ooh even better... that's just so dirty.... *he chukled*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:34:20 PM)
"How many girlfirends you got, anyway?" Amber asks. "Or is you just friends with Della?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:34:55 PM)
just friends, i really don't do the girlfriend thing. I have commitment problems yknow?

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:36:56 PM)
"Oh." She grins. "Yeah, I think I can as get that. Least as you're honest 'bout it."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:37:31 PM)
i try and be.... *he smiled* i dont really like to lie much,just doesnt fit me well

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:39:17 PM)
She nods. "I like that," Amber declares. She shifts till she's laying back on the armrest. "So, that story you ain't gonna tell me yet. Does it got to do with the Euthanatos?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:40:42 PM)
yeah sorta but it's personal.... i just dont like talking about it or thinking about it at all so can you please just not bring it up again? *he smiled weakly at her, it wasnt a demand on his part more like a sublte plead*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:41:23 PM)
"Sorry," she says quietly. "I weren't thinking."

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:41:59 PM)
it's fine babe... it's not like you know or anything i promise if i ever want to talk about it ill tell you ok? *he smiled*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:42:47 PM)
"Okay!" She grins. "Is it okay if I ask you as how you got into them? What were it like for you as learning?"

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:43:57 PM)
i was in the service... its a long complicated story that i need to be more drunk to tell... *he grinned* but i really should go take ashower so you dont have to sit here and smell maggie on me all day. *he chukled a bit*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:45:20 PM)
She laughs. "Alright...go wash!" She shoos him off towards the shower.

Jordan Malave (Feb 13, 2011 2:45:45 PM)
*he would stand and steal a quick kiss to her forehead before laughing and heading off to the shower*

Amber Lux (Feb 13, 2011 2:46:54 PM)
Her eyes widen, and she scrunches up her face at him and sticks her tongue out as he retreats towards the shower.

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