Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:09:33 PM)
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Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:11:30 PM)
Tarra: Ina mkment of unforeseenboldness,shelets her hand go to where it a woman never should on a man, unless she means business. Then she pulls back "You're aroused. IF not asking for that, then what?"
He lets out two gasps breath, his body jumping towards hers, his penis flicking up towards her hands. He Pressed his forhead hard into Tarra's. It was not a violent action it was... a pleasured/pained response. He did not expect that, it startled him.. it pleased him and that pained him.. it was overwhelming. "to love
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:11:35 PM)
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Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:11:36 PM)
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Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:11:38 PM)
"*
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:14:07 PM)
"the first thing you need to do is sleep. This is too much for you for one evening."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:15:53 PM)
"I am not tired..." He pauses. As something dawns on him. She could feel him back away from her in the bed.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:16:12 PM)
"Then we can talk, if you want. But I am."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:16:41 PM)
He remained silent, still easing away from her just slightly - as if afraid. But ntoof her... of soemthing else.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:19:14 PM)
she sighs. "Talk to me."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:21:25 PM)
"You are right," he says. "You are right.. I want to love you... to make love to you to..." the way he spoke it was all highly romantized in his head, perhaps it was the fantasy of sex he created to escape what he had to do with Kate... perhaps hew as an idealist.... perhaps it was purely genuine.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:22:18 PM)
"And you know you can't, because I won't let you. I'll be your friend, your confidant, someone you can trust and give support to. but I can't give you that.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:24:55 PM)
"I know... I will stop loving you don't worry, "even as he spoke his tone shifted. It was now a pure mix of the two sides of Hadrian she saw. The guarded side, of him the side of him that kept her at double arms length and the side of him that was mature and dark and distant. "I shouldn't be in bedw ith you."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:26:12 PM)
"Just go to sleep."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:26:31 PM)
"it's been a big evening."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:26:39 PM)
"I will sleep on the couch"
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:27:34 PM)
"Whatever makes you most comfortable."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:28:38 PM)
"I want to stay here in this bed but you are right.. I will keep kissing you and that will lead to something else... I am sorry." he begins to get out of the bed. "I see you," he said as if reminding her of what she told him before, as if reminding her of the kitchen when he held her and she said she wanted to be see. "I always see you," he begins to stand slowly.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:32:10 PM)
"That you see me...means more to me than I will say. I see you, too."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:32:41 PM)
"The only thing I have in this world that is truly mine is my integrity. I can't lose it."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:33:24 PM)
"I know." He said softly and walked to the door.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:33:53 PM)
"I don't want you to go. I wanted to show you something sweet, innocent and beautiful."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:37:28 PM)
"I was not born innocent. The world is no innocent. And I am protecting something innocent. That is my tithe. Sweet...beautiful.... innoccent Tarra." The room is filled with whatever light from the hallway there is. He is silhouetted by the light. He gives her a glance over his shoulder. He knew he had to leave but more than antyhing he wanted to crawl but into that bed with her...
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:39:48 PM)
"I'm not innocent. I want to tell you about myself." She sits up, pulls on her heavy shirt and covers her legs with the blanket, then pats atop it for him to sit.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:41:32 PM)
"Sleep. Tell me in the morning." he pauses and whispers, "if I come back to that bed... you are right. I will pay my tribute and protect that which /is/ innocent and pure." One hand rests on the door frame, bracing self. the other hand, is hidden, probably holding his clothes to his body. He was still only in a pair of boxer breifs.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:42:31 PM)
"You won't be here in the morning. You're going to slip away into the night and go sleep in the park, because it's the best way you can think to protect yourself from being hurt."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:43:44 PM)
"No. I will be here. I promise...." he looks over at her "if I am asleepwhen you get up... don't touch my shoulders to wake me. Sounds are the best way."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:44:09 PM)
"Alright. Im going to trust you to keep your promise."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:46:17 PM)
"I will never lie to you. I couldn't," he turned and slipped into the hallway. The door slowly closing behind him. If he watched the last look of him would be of the profile of his face, and one hand easing the door shut. For someoe so youthful, he soudned and acted like someone much older suddenly... evne much older than his true age which he hd told her.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:50:41 PM)
*she wakes early in the morning, before th sun, a handwritten note on the table announces that she has walked to the corner store for provisions. She returns with a sack of groceries, enough to feed a person pretty well for a week. Wordlessly, she starts to chop vegetables for breakfast*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:51:07 PM)
((my post will interesct yours slightly, sorry it was taking me a minute to type))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:51:30 PM)
(np. I type fast and use short posts)
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:51:44 PM)
((normally I type faster but hadrian ... is... hard))
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 2:57:21 PM)
Hadrian moved like a ghost. First to the living room his stuff was palced on the couch. He slipped his jeans on. Then he turned and headed silently into the bathroom. In there he foudn his shoes and socks. As silent as he could be he eased his way backto into the living room,sat on the sofa and tugged his socks on. Then he sat on the floor, between the couch and the table. He just sat there for a while.... his eyes fading it seemed as his mind went somewhere else. He weighted until he felt like he was no longer anchored to the world, and he laid down, betwene the two. on his side, using the couch to coverh is stomach. The positioning kept him protected, safe, also alowing for quick defense. When the some came up, he was up instantly. There was no delay in his motions. He stood quickly, looking around, scanning. He was still wearing his socks, pants, no shirt, no boots. He moves to the kitchen, pausing at seeing her.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:58:28 PM)
*vegetables to go in with eggs, and strawberries. fresh straberries, a luxury of the western hemisphere. she mixes the different leavenings together to make griddlecakes. Apparently breafkast is her main meal of the day. No words, just soft sounds, smells. The actions of a woman who on one level, was raised in the focus of being a wife and mother before anything else. Apparently she wasn't lying when she said she was brought up Orthodox. Her hair is pinned up, secured with pencils, exposing her neck.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 2:59:39 PM)
*Again, no words come from her. She pours out some juice, sets it down on the table in front of him."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:00:19 PM)
((oh hadd he snapped a smoke from his bag.. I Forgot that..))
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:00:32 PM)
((unlit)
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:00:39 PM)
((and I am lagging 20 seconds.))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:00:57 PM)
(u need a boot?0
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:01:09 PM)
((no))
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:01:12 PM)
(9better))
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:03:22 PM)
He hasn't read the note, he just kept the fag pressed on his lower chapped lip. He didn't speak to her. He didn't wnat to distract her. He juts smiled... Watching her... he... seemed for the briefest of instances like the boy earlier in the previous night. The boy who was soft and gentle and loving. Now it faded and he went to the sink, grabbing the decanter on the way, fillng it. He went ot the coffee machine - if there was one - and began brewing the morning batch, assuming she had not made any. If she had he got two mugs, and filled them both.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:04:20 PM)
*She's not made coffee. He can see the grinder, real beans. Quiet luxuries that she allows herself, along with the strawberries. mid-way to the coffeepot, she puts out her arm and catches him by the waist*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:09:01 PM)
He catches for a moment, surprsied. He did not see it coming.. well he physically saw it coming he was good at spotting taht stuff, but he had not expected it. He slides his hand over hers, like he was comforting himself against her touch and comforting her. Like a Norman Workwell two lovers early in the morning, after their first night together, expect they had not been together in taht way. Hadrian just smiled, it was fairly goofy smile - and in truth it was the same type young boys give shortly after losing their virginities and they are trying to hide their joy from friends. He was silent, still... and content. More so than he had ever shown her.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:09:39 PM)
Rockwell*
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:10:44 PM)
*she slowly brings him to her, very slowly, very quietly and kisses him. Not the same kiss she had given the night before, something long, careful and contrived. This one is shorter, deeper, and intensely personal. Thanks, relief, need, want, affection. She exhales after it releases*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:17:09 PM)
he uses his freehand to pull the cigarette from his mouth as she nears like that. He turns towards her he doesn't kiss back at first, feeling her close like that. He brings his bare chest to her clothed chest. His lips finaly move against hers, matching the pace, he almost seems to melt into her. One hand on her arm, bracing himself so he doesn not fall into her - like he feels like he will (albeit it metaphorically). His other hand goes to her back, to tug her up towards him to secure her there. The second kiss, surprises him more than the first, like sealing the deal sealing the first kiss. He is envolped by the second one, holding himself against her. She would beable to feel his heart thudding away harder and harder. He held himself tightly to her afterwards. Then he pressed his forehead to hers. All he says, "stay here."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:20:22 PM)
*she whispers a yes to that, not moving, just letting herself be held*
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:23:36 PM)
He smiled, the hand on her arm, sliding around her body to her back, holding her arm against her own body. As she said yes, she could feel his breath catch and his heart beat pick up. His voice, almost with childlike glee whispered "Truely?"
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:24:01 PM)
he smiles. "Well, for now, yes. I have to go to work in a few hours though."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:28:00 PM)
He frowned and the tension in his body could be felt.. as elation was replaced by a soft sadness. "I meant... nevermind."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:28:18 PM)
"Let me go for a moment, sit down, and let's talk?"
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:28:44 PM)
He let her go, without a second request. He then went back to working on the coffee "sit if you want." he said.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:29:30 PM)
She turns over the griddlecakes and starts to stir the eggs, the smells that come out of the pans are fairly intoxicating. "I wanted to tell you about myself.'
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:32:25 PM)
"I was born in Atlanta Georgia. My mother was a teacher at Georgia Tech, newest teacher in their mathematics department. She was 23 years old, and a widow. Her husband had been a teacher there as well, and officially that is who my birth certificate lists as my father. He had died from unnatural circumstances that had never been investigated."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:32:32 PM)
He smiles at the smells then hides his face in his shoulder, covering his mouth and nose as he coughs, trying to hide the gaging sound. It wasn't the food was bad.. it was good smelling.. so good.. the smell got to his stomach.When he focused he said, "I want to know about you." he ground the whoel beans up, finely, he kenw how to work the machine it seemed... He put in the coffee machien and set it.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:32:42 PM)
((move my post up one))
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:32:46 PM)
((please))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:32:50 PM)
(np)
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:33:42 PM)
"My father isn't my mother's husband. But he knew about the affair I think."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:35:31 PM)
He frowned at the mention of affairs. He just turned to look at her nad lsiten.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:36:10 PM)
"My father...my biological father, is a Quaesitor. an inquisitor of my order. He had been sent from Boston to Georgia to investigate a problem in the hermetic chantry. My mother was the chantry leader. And my father was sent because acolytes and people in other orders were dying.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:36:21 PM)
They fell in love. She concieved me.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:36:49 PM)
That's...unheard of, for the inquisitors. they're not allowed to have families, or even lovers. So he hid their love, hid me after I was born.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:38:51 PM)
He watched the coffee machine , his cigarette between his lips. He wa focusign tehre as he listened. Then he turned to watch her, he would not deny her. He was watching her as she spoke, everything about her.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:39:38 PM)
"And then he discovered the ugly truth. That..he had been completely played. My mother..* the knife shakes in her hands* My mother was Barabbi, and in league with the Fallen ones. And his only child was the child of something Fallen. And so he did what he had to do. He put her on trial. And she faced requittal. Not gilgul, because they could find no evidence that she had inverted her avatar.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:42:32 PM)
"He killed her himself. He didn't want anyone else to touch her. the record shows that she knelt in front of him with a sword, and he beheaded her, dropped the blade and wept like he had just killed himself. through the trial, it came out that I was alive. When they asked him what to do with me..he left me to the judgment and care of the Order. There was a discussion what to do.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:42:38 PM)
Watching her speak, he reaches over, his hand slipping over the knife, even at the chance of cuting himself, he did not break eye contact, he just worked to pull the knife away from her hand, and placed it on the counter. He listned ot her.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:44:52 PM)
"It was decided that I should be killed. After all, I was an infant of four months age, who had been in the care of the nephandi. godknows what they had done to me. They ran tests and saw I had no taint. Then, my mother's parents, who were upset at what had happened, made a suggestion. That I be allowed to live, but removed entirely from the situation and put with people who were impartial enough to see if I had a taint, and knowledgeable enough to deal with it."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:46:57 PM)
"My biological grandparents...I've never met them. If I have, they have never revealed themselves to me. But I know that they were jewish as well, and so they went to the Chorus and found the people who I call my grandparents to raise me. And they did. They legally adoped me, and raised me as their child. They thought...the Shapiro's thought..that my hope wsn't in being able to see or not see a nephandi taint at all. What happened, it wasn't my faullt. I was born because a man had loved a woman, and a woman had trusted a man enough to accept that love."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:49:53 PM)
"so they decided that my hope for life wasn't in the arcane, but in simply learning how to love. Their daughter had died in a car accident, so it wasn't that big of a stretch to say that their rebellious child had a child that they were raising up. and they raised me. Very, very strictly, but always in the understanding that it was because those rules were the ones that would let me be happy later on in life. That the strictness, the crossness, those were because they loved me. and honestly, they do love me."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:50:51 PM)
"No one expected me to awaken. I think it upset people when they did, even though Grandfather said it was invevitable. What made him sad was my choice to join Hermes, because he knew I would have a harder life there. But I was too curious for the Chorus."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:50:57 PM)
"And now you know."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:52:14 PM)
He did not break eye cotnact as he watched her. Silent. Until that point "I do know. ANd I accept you as you are."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:52:32 PM)
"There's nothing evil about me."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:52:48 PM)
"but I'm not innocent. And I know what I have to do."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:53:24 PM)
"The child should not pay for the sin. You are innocent...pure...and beautiful." His tone was almost sharp.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:53:26 PM)
"My mother seduced my father and bore me because she needed help. Her soul was never inverted. but part of it was separated from her. I have to get it back."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:54:02 PM)
"My father...he acted out of logic instead of emotion. He should have saved her. He didn't."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:54:43 PM)
"I will help you find it."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:55:07 PM)
"I would not ask you to walk into the darkness."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:56:38 PM)
"You did not ask. I am volunteering."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:56:46 PM)
"I can't accept."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 3:57:54 PM)
"I don't think I was asking though."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 3:58:22 PM)
"Hadrian..the dark ones..they can twist the good right out of you. I don't want to see it taken away, so soon after you've found it again." she sets food in front of him, then goes to hug him again.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 4:01:53 PM)
He hugs her back, but it is not longer Hadrian, it is someone older in his body it seems, some one far wiser. He rests his cheek to the top of her head and whispers down int oher ear, "I know. I have faced them before.... When I failed to save Cassandra and she died in my arms, Kate watching, she told I would ahve to find somethign to restore balance. If this that something, evne if ti isn't... I am not backing away from someone I love.... even if I cannot love her... I will do what i must."
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 4:03:26 PM)
"You should love someone who can love you back, someone who would have been strong enough to take you into her heart and share your body last night when you wanted to offer it."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 4:06:05 PM)
"No." he said sharply in her ear. "You were strong last night. Strong.. Pure... It was stronger of you to reject base desire for waht is right.. I will love you even if I cannot, or am not suppose to, and you do not accept me liek that. I will always see you. " He lets her go form the hug.
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 4:08:30 PM)
"I know you will. I see you as well."
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 4:09:52 PM)
He nodded, "so if I am distant... know that is because I love you. And I don't want to hurt...." there was a puse and he looked up at her, hs eyes firm "you." Another pause as the gears shift, "What do you need from us to find what is lost?:
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 4:12:57 PM)
"We'll discuss it in time Right now, your breakfast is getting cold. and I have to go to work.
Hadrian Merynhert (Sep 17, 2010 4:15:55 PM)
((See ya))
Tarra Shapiro (Sep 17, 2010 4:15:58 PM)
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