Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:19:00 AM)
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Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:21:31 AM)
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Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:22:14 AM)
*Jacqui's in one of the downstairs sitting rooms- she's in a loose blue dress- the heat up to a riddiculous degree as she sits on the floor brushing Fi Fi*

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:22:26 AM)
(I'm assuming that by this point Alys has a key since she's helping the cultists with music)

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:23:36 AM)
*alys as normal arrived at jacq's place and walked in early since she liked to make sure everything was set up as it should be. seeing jacq she stopped and smiled*" hello..how are you today?"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:25:10 AM)
I'm doing ok- just trying to stay out of the cold a bit *brush brush brush- Fi Fi looks up at Alys but obviously likes her brushing*

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:26:11 AM)
*alys looked at her watch and then seeing she had time walked into the room and joined them*" cold? this is... not cold...detriot was cold"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:27:13 AM)
Jacqui never lived anywhere other than here- her body doesn't like the temprature out there

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:30:46 AM)
" really? intersting.... Alys moved...she wanted to distance herself from her...family"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:31:52 AM)
*nods* sometimes that happens- Jacqui got along with her family for the most part and she loved the city- I can't help but feel some of how she felt for it

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:33:12 AM)
" yes it's strange how...thier thoughts, thier memories linger, even though... thier souls are gone."

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:33:25 AM)
*a sadness touched alys's voice*

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:35:45 AM)
*she would nod* I've tried to hold one, but I don't know how to do it with out loosing who I am

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:38:18 AM)
" hold one?"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:38:47 AM)
(hold on )

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:41:07 AM)
((still asking hehe))

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:42:04 AM)
to who she was- but the more I try to hold onto her the more I feel me slipping away- thats what happened with James- I was lonely- Alex was gone- I was losing myself to who she is and how she thinks- then when Alex came back I remembered more of who I was

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:45:52 AM)
*nods*" i see...for me... james is the kind of man alys would have loved. and i love him so much."* a sadness caressed her face*" i just wish...he trsted me more."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:46:52 AM)
I'm not sure he knows how to trust- maybe I destroyed it- but I didn't mean to- I didn't promise him that I would be his and only his- I wouldn't even promise Ze-Alex that

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:49:10 AM)
" but i do not wish to be with anyone but him."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:49:50 AM)
I'm not sure he knows what he wants- on one breath he's telling me how much he loves me and how he still wants to be with me even if he goes to you- and in the next he's calling me a whore

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:50:37 AM)
*nods*" yet i know what i want...even though it will bring me pain in time.."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:51:47 AM)
*reaches out a hand to her* we can't make them see no matter how much we wish we could

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:53:50 AM)
" i know it's just...i want to be with him till he des.. even knowing i won't age... knowing the grief i'll feel.. i want to be with him.."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:54:47 AM)
maybe he'll listen if you go to talk to him- he's staying at Caleb's to the best of my knowledge

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:56:31 AM)
" i don't.. why did he go to a stranger that i don't know? it's... made me scared nervuos"

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:56:50 AM)
" i want to close myself off from him..."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:57:41 AM)
well he was there a lot anyway because I made arrangements for Caleb's thrall Celeste to teach James about the occult

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:58:32 AM)
*nods*" but i don't know them and at least i can trust you"

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 11:58:49 AM)
" so it didn't upset me...opening myself to him"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 11:59:18 AM)
I trust Caleb, but I have no idea about James- he's so full of jealous and anger

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:00:29 PM)
" he's never been agery or jealous with me"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:04:04 PM)
he was all the time with me- he was so mad that I didn't look at him the way I did Alex and Swan, so mad that I wouldn't tell him every little thing that happened between us

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:06:27 PM)
"maybe...he's not jelous becuase he does not feel like ...i will replace him...he knowsi want him and him alone."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:07:55 PM)
I don't know- it wasn't replacing him though- I didn't change how I looked at him- he just wanted more than I could give him

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:08:40 PM)
*nods*

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:08:52 PM)
" maybe he felt threatened"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:09:27 PM)
*continuing the brushing of Fi Fi- a pile of dog hair quickly growing next to her as she does* I won't change for anyone

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:12:39 PM)
" nor should you"

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:13:15 PM)
" i will not change for james"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:13:38 PM)
I think he has to figure out what he wants before anyone can give it to hiim

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:16:57 PM)
*nods*" i guess then he did make the right destion.."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:17:25 PM)
perhaps- I don't know anymore

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:18:27 PM)
*caressed jacq's hand*

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:18:49 PM)
" at least there is love in the world."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:19:05 PM)
I don't know how to not hurt people- it's like they want to feel the pain- like that's all they understand of love

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:21:30 PM)
" jacq......"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:22:55 PM)
read the paper- how many of the killings are because of love?

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:23:52 PM)
I made something beautiful and this is what He did to it- this is what he twisted my work into

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:24:23 PM)
*pets jacq more*

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:24:54 PM)
and look at what I did to James

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:29:57 PM)
" jacq...we all want diffenrt things"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:31:01 PM)
if I hadn't been so lonely I probably wouldn't have given him the wrong idea, but I needed someone so much and he was the only one that was here all the time

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:32:55 PM)
" we are lonely and we need people.."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:33:36 PM)
I did love him though- just not the way he wanted

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:35:49 PM)
" i know"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:36:35 PM)
I'm sorry I'm being all whiney- how are you?

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:38:07 PM)
" your not being whiney"

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:38:13 PM)
"and i'm alright"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:38:43 PM)
*she would smile pulling her down into a cuddle pile with her and the dog* I'm just not good at the whole alone thing

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:44:05 PM)
" are any of us?"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:54:28 PM)
.

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:56:00 PM)
((??))

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 12:56:51 PM)
some seem to be, I think if I left Swan alone he would be happy alone, at least he would have been before me (sorry it didn't show your post till after I sent the . for some reason)

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 12:59:56 PM)
" true but others are not"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:00:25 PM)
*nods* I am not- I need people

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:03:43 PM)
" i know.. so do i to some extent"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:05:24 PM)
*leaning against her- seeming to be done removing the dogs hair* it's why I surround myself like this- I have since the first

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:05:43 PM)
" and it's a good thing.."

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:06:16 PM)
*she would smile at that- almost like a switch being flipped* they are wonderful- and they grow so much each and every day

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:09:32 PM)
" i know "

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:10:00 PM)
just a few at a time, but eventually we'll be the majority not the minority and we can stop hiding

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:24:00 PM)
.

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:35:47 PM)
" i wish we didn't have to hide"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:36:12 PM)
someday we will have it- someday we will all be free

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:36:23 PM)
" i hope so"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:37:05 PM)
*all snuggly and seemingly happy now* so what about you how are your projects goiing?

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:38:51 PM)
" well....my students are so happy to learn"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:40:02 PM)
*she would smile at that* that's wonderful- the ones here or are you teaching elseweere as well?

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:41:21 PM)
" here for now... i want to not streach myself too thin"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:42:46 PM)
*she would nod* they have mentioned how wonderul patient you are to me a few have even asked me if you would mind teaching their children the piano

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:44:48 PM)
" well i'm sure i can inculde a few childern in to jessi's lessons'

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:45:08 PM)
is that your daughter?

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:45:13 PM)
*nods*

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:45:29 PM)
I"m sure they would appricate it- but I wouldn't want to take away form your time with her

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:46:08 PM)
" jesi would love the company.... and i always make sure i have time for her"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:46:32 PM)
*she would nod* that's great I'll let them know

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:48:23 PM)
" good... i'm glad they enjoy thier lessons, it means they are working hard"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:49:05 PM)
*nods* I don't tend to bring lazy people here- I want people that have a vision and are willing to work toward it- even if that has to be in secret for now

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:51:18 PM)
*nods*" well at least mine don't need to hde thier skills"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:52:23 PM)
it's all part of the same pacakge though- some of them just being affiliated with me could break them if it was known publicaly

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:52:35 PM)
" true"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 1:53:16 PM)
but if none of us are public about the life we lead then nothing will change

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 1:59:21 PM)
" true as things don't change if people do not try"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 2:00:25 PM)
*she would smile* but I have my people and my boys and so things are going as well as can be expected, Alex and James are going to help me learn to defend myself and these people more if it's needed

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 2:00:57 PM)
" i should learn to defend myself better"

Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 2:01:12 PM)
maybe he can teach us both

Alys (Dec 15, 2010 2:01:15 PM)
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Jacqueline Rose Leblanc (Dec 15, 2010 2:12:38 PM)
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