Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:13:09 PM)
(This user has entered A little park off burbon street) (IP = 68.53.135.79)

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:13:46 PM)
(This user has entered A little park off burbon street) (IP = 97.117.241.99)

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:14:28 PM)
*as he aproaches the pavilion, he slips from shellshocked to an almost march, movign to stand in the pavillion and entering a military at ease*

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:15:44 PM)
Save it... you know... I was mad.. no.. I was pissed off actually... - she put her purse on the table and walks over to stand toe to toe with him, her voice .. slightly shaky -

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:16:41 PM)
*as she gets in his face he moves from at ease to atention, letting her unload if that's what she wants*

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:17:58 PM)
- she looks him dead in the eye, hers bright with unshed tears- I healed you, so tell me why you are still acting like this? - she shook herhead- don't worry... I wont do anything to harm you .. I stick to my vow - verbal dagger? yup_

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:21:11 PM)
After what I have been through, healing is a process, and I still have no clue how people work, how people interact, You have taken away a great portion of my fear that the technocrats are in the trees, but that doesn't mean I know how the human heart works, and that doesnt' change my duty to my tradition. I have been reminded that there are standards I have to holdmyself to. I am only allowed to violate the rule of three int he course of my duties, but I am in a place where I have no choice but to cause harm outside of my duties, so I am trying to cause the least harm I can.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:22:55 PM)
- she shook her head - The tradition stuff.. fine .. I understand that.. and yes I was angry until I was reminded , so Ill own letting my emotions run away with me...

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:25:16 PM)
I have done a great disservice to you, and for that I am sorry, but first, foremost, and above all, I am a Jack. And that means that I cannot be more than your friend and your personal trainer. I am deeply sorry for the hurt I know I have caused you, but know that I will be paying for my transgressions agaisnt you, probably for a long time to come.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:25:19 PM)
But what I am having a hard time with right now.. is the fact that as soon as you were able .. you did not think to let me know anything... and when i saw you on the street you werent going to say anything to me until I spoke to you ...Regardless to what you have to do ..No matter how emotionaly stunted you may be.. You couldn't have been raised to treat people so carelessly

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:25:36 PM)
[in before yours]

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:25:45 PM)
(( Yup, jsut swap them. ))

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:26:32 PM)
Damn right you did.. because right now.. I am thinking the entire night and eveyrthing YOU - a finger in his chest - showed me was a lie..

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:29:27 PM)
*and a voice from his pohone says "... poison ivy..." He pays it no mind but when she moves to poke him in the chest she can see that his instinc takes over for a second to defend himself. He manages to stop himself and looks her in the eyes* It wasn't a lie, but my duty comes from my God, and that trumps everything else. I have done you wrong, and this is the way I can see to do the least wrong. You diserve better than I can give you.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:29:57 PM)
- she stepped as close as his shoes would allow- I never asked you to give up your tradition.. never, I only asked that you give whatever it was that night a chance.. - her face cumbles- Was it a lie alex?

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:30:31 PM)
is it because Im black or something... help me understand this...

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:30:49 PM)
- Yeah she was a cultist but that didnt mean she didnt have feelings -

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:31:28 PM)
So you decided to make that choice for me ?

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:31:45 PM)
You couldnt have come to me and explained and let me decide ?

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:32:46 PM)
No. It was not a lie, and Honestly, I like the fact that you are black. It ahs to do with the fact that... We moved way to fast, and I wasn't capable of stopping myself. I messed this up, and now I have to pay the price. THis descision doesn't concern just you. If I am to continue to serve my God and my tradition, my path is clear, I need to stop ricocheting through the world of social interaction at breakneck paces.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:34:25 PM)
We agreed to slow things down ...I still dont understand ..- tears flow freely now -

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:34:50 PM)
- she still searches his eyes - what are you not telling me ?

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:35:34 PM)
And I don't know how to explain that this is soemthing that has to do with my God, my Tradition, and my duties as a Jack.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:36:14 PM)
you did the great rite didnt you ?

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:36:24 PM)
I am nto telling you that I have a lot of women or women like people who have thrown themselves at me since I came here, and I am havign this conversation with all of them.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:36:52 PM)
Has anyone else bothered to align your chakras? Nope..

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:36:52 PM)
I have not performed it. *social tertiary, no dots in manipulation, he couldn't lie if he tried*

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:37:34 PM)
has anyone opened themselves so freely to you that they *VOWED* to you ?

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:38:40 PM)
- shes only a breath away, her lips almost touching his- has anyone else made you feel anything remotely close to what I have ? - she whispered, her face wet with tears as she looks at him -

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:38:58 PM)
[this sucks ass LOL]

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:38:59 PM)
A lto of people have made a lot of promises and vows, and I don't know why. So before I get myself in trouble becasue everyone seems to want the broken soldier, I had best remove myself from teh battlefield.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:39:29 PM)
- she shok her head- But I backed all of mine up.. dos that not mean anything?

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:40:29 PM)
So has everyoen else, and sooner or later, I am going to get put in a position where I can't keep all of them. a contradiction will crop up. And when that happens, I will lose my right to enlightment. Would you rather have me go back to sleep?

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:42:30 PM)
Ascension does not require that kind of sacrifice.. I know this because i was never asleep Alex... so try another line...

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:43:08 PM)
You are scared... and the sad thing is you are hiding behind your tradition...

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:44:19 PM)
My power is contingent on my worthiness in the eyes of the dark father. *Somethign she jsut said obviously set him on edge* Do not pretend to know who and what I am or the rules placed on me that aren't placed on you. *his voice is taking on a razor's edge* Is there anything else you would like to add, or would you like to hurkl insults at that which is most important to me some more?

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:44:41 PM)
and never... ever compare me to another ... did you make any vows to them too?

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:46:17 PM)
It matters not. I can't handle you and them and the attention. I am taking myself off the market, untill I can find someone who won't push me past my abuility to cope.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:46:32 PM)
I am not insulting I am being honest, which you should have done before you even touched me outside of the ritual... I allowed it so I will take my share of that but you need to own up to the fact that you broke my heart Alex.. You directly effected my path ..

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:46:47 PM)
when have I done that ?

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:47:03 PM)
I have. I do own that, and like I said I will pay.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:47:32 PM)
I dont want repayment alex, i want you to honor your vow to me... you swore to never hurt me ..

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:47:38 PM)
When you got bent out of shape because I was attendding to my duty and not to you.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:47:55 PM)
How was I supposed to know ?

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:48:05 PM)
At this point I am in a position where I can't not hurt you, so I choose to hurt you the least I can while leaving my soul intact.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:48:10 PM)
did you send a txt .. call .. carrier pigeon?

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:48:52 PM)
all you had to do was send a txt because I knew you had to have known you were going to be out of the area... you could have done that..

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:48:57 PM)
No, because I couldn't do any of those. If I could have I would ahve and this conversation needed to happen face to face and right now I am ignoring my duties to have it.

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:49:26 PM)
Feel free to be angry at me, feel free to curse the day you met me, but I have duties to attend to.

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:49:40 PM)
I dont.. I feel sad..

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:50:05 PM)
You are free to do that as well. Now, I must go attend to my duties. I have ignored them far too long.

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:50:20 PM)
*and with that he turns to head out, back to burbon street*

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:50:27 PM)
wait..

Alex Steele (Mar 14, 2011 10:50:32 PM)
(This user has moved to [FQ] Bourbon Street – ( http://www.sinful-illusions.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=34&t=86&p=186#p186 )) (IP = 68.53.135.79)

Lyric Blake (Mar 14, 2011 10:50:41 PM)
(This user has moved to [FQ] Bourbon Street – ( http://www.sinful-illusions.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=34&t=86&p=186#p186 )) (IP = 97.117.241.99)